What Do You Do When Your Natural Psychic Defences Are Compromised?

I have been reading about a battle that has been going on for ages on Earth between light and dark. There are spiritual beings that act to harm humans incarnate on Earth. I now call those spiritual beings "lower astral entities".

I have been given a lifetime where I am coming into awareness as sharing the space I am in with some of these lower astral entities. Sometimes they present just as human consciousness entities - and sometimes they present as malevolent human consciousness entities bringing significant life resistance.

People are supposed to have natural spiritual protection in the form of the "aura", which is a kind of soul organ surrounding the body in a large egg-shape with different layers and functions. Sometimes the strong outer membrane of the aura becomes compromised, and a person may then be subject to disturbance by lower entities or energies.

There are a few books out there on psychic protection, and many webpages given to psychic protection and keeping safe regarding what belongs to the spirit reality - but, the big question is, what are you supposed to do when your psychic protection is compromised, you are open, and you have spiritual intrusion?

I think it comes down to a few things. For me, this is a "work in progress", I have not recovered my health yet.
You can try shamanic healing for "extraction" work to remove intrusive entities as an intervention.
You can try aura work from spiritual healers to repair the aura.
You can get spiritual development (for example at a spiritualist church) to learn how to close down your psychic perception and not be open all the time.
You can stay "grounded" in the Earth energy, and in your body awareness.
You can practice spiritual hygiene by staying away from hospitals, cemeteries, mortuaries and churches, and keep away from recreational or psychedelic drugs (as drugs can harm the aura and open you).
You can look at healing your conscious and subconscious self and keeping your emotions and awareness bright and happy, and love your way into evolving through shadow places in your life experience.
You can take care what you think about, so that you increase that which you love and not that which  makes you unhappy (according to metaphysical laws). Focus on bringing good into your Life, avoid worrying about health.
You can not waste your energy by loving intruding entities or counselling them in what is good - if it doesn't help in the beginning, stop.
You can take care not to befriend entities occupying space in your conscious awareness, even if you feel like they deserve to be treated with respect (they may be changeable in temperament, like mine, but do not trust them to be your friends).
You can go through exorcism through traditional religious routes (but those faith leaders may have less esoteric knowledge of what is troubling you spiritually and how to overcome it).


If you see a faith healer/spiritual healer, exercise caution in who you choose.
Some may be lying about what they can do for money or power or respect.
Some may believe they can help when they are deluded.
Some may say they can help when they can't because they don't have the knowledge or practical experience.
Some will know how to help and will do so.

Beware of people who say they are healers but say they have no psychic awareness.
Beware of paying a lot of money for a healing or courses of healing.
Beware of what seems like a "magic fix" and instant miracle cure.
I would also say that remote entity release is something to beware of.

Also, last year I saw a healer who was set up to work as a professional shamanic practitioner offering to perform spirit release, and I came away with an extra spirit consciousness entity attaching with me! It  must have been that she was more of a beginner on her path, and unaware that she herself had entities near her, perhaps a few.

Anyway, enough scary ideas, but there are many writers out there on the internet talking about spiritual intrusion and spirit release. This would be a spiritual health issue. This issue has also gained attention of psychologists (eg Dr. William Baldwin), who have used hypnosis to communicate with attaching entities and then release them to the Light. I also saw a Youtube video which featured the testimony of an anonymous American hospital psychiatrist who was scientifically convinced that he had patients having objectively real communication with unseen consciousness entities.
Of course, you can do your own research on this. I am open to questions in the comments section of this blog, which I can answer according to my personal life experience knowledge.

Good luck! And all blessings to you on your path of spiritual health, peace, Light and happiness.

Popularity of Posts on Diagnosis Schizophrenia: My Drawings

In terms of written posts,. most people come here to find out about "psychic attack", and less come for my autobiography on living with psychic/spiritual attack and the blurred lines in my culture between mental suffering and being psychic or sick.

However, way more (twice the number) of people come to see my drawings, from my initial breakdown and from time since then - which is a BIG surprise! It is unexpected, and I really like that people are interested in the drawings. Those drawings (from the search item "schizophrenia drawings") are very unusual. First I was an ordinary person, capable but not overly interested in art, then I was in a borderline mental place and drawing with passion or rapture and bringing forth designs from the unconscious. These drawings I hold to be special; I have had two of them made into posters, that I framed and hung on my walls in my home, they have a special place in my life, and rise above being a symbol of illness.

For me, the main point here is that most people who come to my blog are looking for some manner of support to respond to psychic attack or spiritual warfare, perhaps also with an emphasis of being disorientated and supposed insane . In many parts of the world and among the general population, awareness of spiritual attack is obviously non-existent (and you might well know that this awareness may merely be manifested as utter skepticism), and where it does it exist, it is likely to be known as fact rather than experience, or be special knowledge held by a few or by knowing ones. Which is not surprising. Psychic attack is "a big deal", you can buy many books on "psychic protection" on Amazon now, for example, but this condition of experiencing psychic aggression in an everyday or pronounced way is, I suppose, quite or very marginal. If you are reading this, you are likely a skeptical scientist or a spiritually sensitive person. If you are here as a spiritually sensitive person, then good luck to you, it is not all bad, you must be in the grace of God and on  a path with many gifts and wonders in store! Peace be with you, whatever the reason why you are reading this.

I hope I have been some help in guiding spiritually sensitive people on Earth at this time who are coping with spiritual wounds and warfare. Perhaps it is coming to the end of the 'investigation', this parapsychologist writes, as I am hopefully about to go to hospital and be initiated into the "bunker-buster" of psychiatric medications, called Clozaril, which may shut down and heal any excessive sensitivity of mind that I have. But I expect to report on that attempted treatment too, as it is also worth writing about for the world.

Until next time, good luck, and happy reading. Remember, the truth is out there...

Magical Power

Did you know that in some cultures, the power to bless and curse is only believed to reside in witches? It is my belief that everyone carries these powers. That doesn't make everyone witches, but it does make everyone powerful and part of a spiritual reality. Life is characterised by power, and by change. We must match the power of Life with our own self-esteem: only when we cultivate grandeur that matches Life can we hope to be at peace with Life in this world, and hope to go on living effectively and with strength. In a position of strength, we cannot easily be overpowered or intimidated.
Well-being is in an attitude of strength, and well-being is in practices that bring strength - like prayer, meditation and communion with Nature or like-minded spiritual believers. Well-being is also in unity consciousness and good, kind moral deeds. Or it may be in therapies or medicinal intervention.

I believe that it must be that the sensitivity to magical power, and degrees of magical powerfulness itself must vary in all people. Thus some can bless or curse, and some can be more sensitive to it than others. But at any rate, there is nothing to fear. Even if you are sure that you are affected by a person or spirit's negative will, there is nothing to fear.


The English writer of some few hundred years ago called Dr Johnson once criticised those who "discourse like angels, but live like men", that is, he expects us to "walk our talk". I am conscious here that I speak of my understanding - and that integrating my understanding is an ongoing process. It is enough to understand the benefits of feeling big in power, (matching Life's great grandeur) and to remember that feeling from time to time. If I had already completed this awareness in myself, I would no longer suffer from the mischief and malice of spirit people! Make yourself 'huge' to match the huge life issue, whatever it may be.




Good luck to all of you, readers - but maybe you make your own good luck? ;)

AMAZING FEELINGS

After over ten years of daily psychic warfare, resisting evil, I now feel like I can give guidance to others who may be going through the same thing. I know I have been doing so here on this blog, but now I feel I can answer specific questions on it. If you wish to leave me a question, put it in the comments here, or anywhere on this blog.

02 June 2011 Notes

No complaints. I don't hear complaints from the spirits around me stuck on Earth. Some of them are vituperative, rude. Some are fairly friendly.

If you could listen to my thoughts, you would know that I sometimes complain, and that I wonder what can make up for ten years of mental hardship being psychologically abused from within my mind space.

Some years ago I went to a doctor and asked for pain medicine to ease my mental suffering. "What do you mean, mental pain? Do you mean emotional pain?" He wasn't sure what I meant, and I wish I'd told him that the pain I feel is the same pain that we humans feel when someone insults us or uses rude language towards us. That would have made things clearer.

Mediumistic psychic attack at the conscious level, which must be extremely rare, parallels psychological abuse of all kinds, whether between married people or as a form of interrogation and torture. I have insight into that mental control that can take place as one tries to dominate another, noticing that it might work by "second-guessing" another, for example, or in some way preventing them from being 'assertive' and mentally strong to the extent that they cannot express themselves in ordinary sentences of speech without being contradicted. I go through some pretty major insults and trickery and 'obfuscation', as if they are toying with me (playful malice), but I am lucky in that they do not attempt to take away my power to be assertive. It is more a case of discrediting and insulting me, which is a kind of psychic violence.

Why do words hurt?

Why can words of insult or coarseness cause injury and irritation?

A secondary symptom is that I hear so much that I get comments from Earthbound spirits around me to the effect that I get a sore mind from being exposed to a sense of humour (jokes) that are far from what I feel is good. We are chalk and cheese. Why is it there are so many of these spirits? they all have the same rude sense of humour!, be it sexist, racist, or otherwise plainly excessively mischievous.

The Christian tradition calls such spirits, Earthbound ones, "Spiritus immundus" (singular), impure spirits. They certainly are that in their humour! And that humour 'perfectly' blends into hostile and abusive psychic energy.

I once went to an abbey, and heard a priestly voice say, with pity, "you are unclean". He meant that I am spiritually defiled (and I suppose also contagious) through being subject to mental intercourse with spirits of impure emotionality and intent. Strange to hear that from a spirit. (The definition of unclean I just gave was from a dictionary).

The troublesome spirits cause confusion, whether by actually interfering with my body language in public situations making me seem untrustworthy (! - true, such is their influence over my psyche), and also misleading others, higher or earthbound, spirits about my thoughts. Now I ring an imaginary bell to indicate that I am under attack, and it actually helps clarify for those spirits around me what is going on. (This must be hard to understand! But these are the facts of my everyday life). When the troublesome spirits mess with my thoughts to make them unpleasant and rude, it often is not just an injury to me but it looks for an instant like they are exactly my thoughts. So now I ring the bell (like lepers used to do to signify they were 'unclean' and contagious). The bell helps to signify that there is spiritual danger to anyone in spirit who notices.

OK, that was too hard to understand and believe, I'm sure. But I feel my normal self writing this.


There must be so many unhappy spirits either stuck on Earth or spirits of ill will close by Earth that cause humanity pollution. There must be so many of them. I wonder what God is doing about them. I wonder what God thinks about them - or rather, how he would describe them to me - he/she wouldn't say they are psychopathic, dysfunctional, because those words are dysfunctional. But still, the spirits in question must do a lot of harm, they do evil; however, essentially, they are not evil beings, because they exist, they are creatures of God.

Shortly after coming out of psychiatric hospital a few years ago, I heard a spiritual voice say "We're glad you're not mad anymore." It was just once that I heard that voice. It is very touching to have heard those words. I know it was an earthbound spirit - I can tell earthbound spirit from mortal telepathic, and good-natured spirits from badly-mannered and evil-behaved ones; I know the difference between a celestial voice and an Earthbound voice, just from having heard them once.



I have to ask myself, why don't I do something about this, and go on a massive campaign to track down someone in the world who is more psychic, more knowing and more healthy than I am who can put things right for me. Why not? Answer: a lack of mindfulness; and busy-ness; and loss of faith; and beliefs of scarcity of people with such skills; and maybe I'm not ready to be healed yet, who knows. So I have to forgive myself. It's something I consciously wish to do later, soon, but not now. For instance I'm busy now, about to move house (hopefully). but maybe I should start some distance healing with the person I have in mind. I think I'll do that actually! Contact them and ask them to see what they can do from afar (I am quite a long way from where they are, it involves a special trip).

A happy moment. We'll see what happens. I guess I'll feel happier for doing something about this, this unbelievable situation of fully conscious psychic attack by negative-thinking 'demoniac' spirits and overcrowding by ghosts.

Hearing Ghosts

Hearing ghosts can be pretty hard. Today I notice that there is actually a lot of verbal abuse coming from spirits around me. It's like schoolyard bullying really. One person is stronger, the other has their defenses down. The 'bullying' person uses a certain kind of language to attack with, calling names with rude words.

Of course this hurts, and it is irritating, but it can be sustained.

It's not constant, but it is quite frequent. Some of the ghosts around me are fairly harmless, quite friendly in fact. Some have what I would respectfully call emotional problems. They feel the need to be aggressive and attack - something in me causes them fear.

So this post is merely to note that such spirits are emotionally disturbed. This is a respectful way of looking at them, and it is a non-aggressive response to them to realise that actually there must be serious causes within their own personal history for their choices.

I am planning on seeing someone soon, someone in the alternative health line of work, to help me. She is more of a medium, so I hope she can help move these spirits on. I will write on the blog here the result of seeing her.

Consequences: Why I Am Where I am

I asked myself today, what are the causes that lead to the consequences of my being psychotic and experiencing psychic attack?

The simple answer: it was using cannabis, without understanding or initiation.

I was not prepared for the potential of cannabis to cause fearful anxiety, nor for its potential to induce spiritual experiences. Both of those factors resulted in a downfall for me, as I became terribly anxious, then withdrawn, delusional and had hallucinations as the fear increased; I also opened up spiritual sensitivity - both to God and to the spirit reality. 

Cannabis can actually be a mystical aid in its spiritualising properties, and the possibilities of spiritual opening are best prepared for with some kind if teaching, to prevent paranoia and to ground a person to avoid sudden change of personality and outlook. 

As for attracting spirit attack, this could have come about through the general toxic mindset I had at the time of breakdown, being full of fear and having perceptions of evil and horrible hallucinations, and because spirits from realms of less Divine Light awareness can be drawn to those on Earth whose inner light is blossoming through spiritual awakening [I read recently that spirits can be drawn to those who are spiritually awakening].

This was supposed to be a simple post! I was just going to write that I got into this difficulty through using cannabis without knowing what it could do.

Condition Summary

In addition to previous schizophrenic symptoms of hallucination and delusion, I experience painful spiritual phenomena based around past trauma, personal power, and the ability of other beings to be energetically 'attached' to me. These spiritual symptoms are as follows:



Telepathic psychological abuse, also described as mental domination by spirits, is the central element in the condition. It operates by thought disturbance, by forceful manipulation of thinking and attention rather than by heard voices.

Spiritual domination following damage to aura by extensive cannabis use can also be accompanied by spiritual possession of telepathic faculties that may harm others, whenever possible. Pronounced psychic awareness was developed or awakened by cannabis use, and is now disadvantageously serving to allow psychic attack by spirits (for unknown reason) and signalling the presence of ghosts.

Voices of ghosts are frequently heard, which can be as painful as psychological abuse sometimes. Not only experiencing psychic nudity, but sharing space with ghosts and experiencing no physical privacy.



But enough of complaints, enough of what is spoken partly through suffering!

I have close spiritual friends also, through the gift of clairaudience communicating with spirits from 'Heaven' who visit and attend to me apparently constantly. I have a strong belief in an afterlife, and hence in a spiritual reality and in God. I am 'spiritual' and happy!

Secondly, I am gaining spiritual mastery, learning about primal creativity - manifestation - and how to control it in a positive loving way.

Thirdly, I am helping to change the beliefs of the world via this blog, sabotaging (!) in a small way the split between science and the traditional spiritual beliefs of the world, in favour of a more flexible system of medical psychology. I recognise that I have become a parapsychologist with useful knowledge to complement my useful parapsychic abilities.

Fourthly, I may actually get better, and mostly through my own efforts. These efforts will be spiritual; I will also have to work on my emotions, thoughts and perceptions of my life history.

There it is!
Good luck to all of you. May you understand and feel free.

This Just In! I've Found The Answer... Again...

I had another "aha" moment while on the net today. I had opened a book up recently and found reference to the aura (the bubble that keeps our subtle energy machinery intact), and how its outer surface is slightly tougher. The aura has a skin, a 'membrane'. So I searched "auric membrane", and one search item caught my attention, because it mentioned psychic attack. This website, http://www.lightsmith.com/ turns out to be an excellent site, to my tastes, for 'channeled information' - a New Age term for information that is received by psychically sensitive individuals from spirits. In effect, the spirits speak through people who are on Earth in dense material form.

Anyway, here's the latest information I've found, courtesy of the aformentioned website, and here is the link to the page for you to look for yourself:

Psychic attack is only possible when the auric membrane has trauma or damage.


Two things: it's like there's no mental barrier, so it's easy for spirits to know what goes through my mind. They can just come in and manipulate my thoughts, being stronger. Secondly, as I have written before, cannabis use weakens natural auric defenses: when I got ill, I remember having the sensation that others knew my thoughts, as I walked by them on the street. Could it be that I have experienced the sensation of the schizophrenic symptom of 'thought broadcasting' ever since my cannabis use, because my auric membrane was damaged? Another website says that the auric membrane can become fragmented. Certainly there is [the appearance of] psychic vulnerability and psychic nudity in my position. (Psychic nudity by the way, for me at least, feels uncomfortable).


In another page of this website, found here, the Spirit group channelled offer information on possession. Briefly, possession occurs when a soul is weakened, probably due to trauma, and a stronger soul imposes itself upon the weaker soul, not for real love, but for lower ego ends. Again, damage to the auric membrane is cited as a contributing factor. In other words, your energy becomes permeable, open to outside influences. With me there are two problems: spirit attachment, and psychic attack by spirits. The second problem, spirit attack, is mainly described as manipulation of my mental activity to painful ends. But it does not stop at domination, as stated elsewhere on this blog, disturbance also extends to temporary possession of my telepathic faculties, so that I might be a transmitter - a medium or channel - of unhealthy energies to injure others; I feel them projecting from my third eye, and I'm aware of their force or words. (A force will call attention to an uncomfortable idea, and a voice will communicate the idea in words). Obviously there are karmic issues here, but should I come to be free from this negative telepathic influence on me, then I should quickly 'burn off' this karmic debt.

Interestingly, the website also says that any kind of victim consciousness, or "I don't want to be here" consciousness, or "I'm not strong enough for this" thinking will work against a person who is already in the flow of being possessed or dominated in mind - it will draw them further into 'manifesting' this reality, and it will put them further into the invading soul's power. Makes sense, as all those sad thoughts are essentially affirmations of weakness. This is important for me, because I can think like this sometimes.

A solution the spirit speakers suggest is to claim personal responsibility. It makes sense that we become stronger by rebuilding our personal power.

The first page linked to above lists various ways of helping with a damaged aura that is permitting psychic attack, and the information is definitely worth looking at. It recommends working with the Earth energy, the angelic realm and unconditional love, and finding a true healer who is in tune with unconditional love.


I've been ransacking that website for information for hours! Their Responses From Spirit pages are very interesting (and have relieved me of a number of spiritual worries).


Nice to be validated to the effect

• mental domination by stronger spirits can happen
• there is an explanation for this mental domination
• there is a solution to this mental domination
• psychic attack can happen

... and the people at http://www.lightsmith.com/ have authority I don't have, because they do not seem mentally ill. I however have had mental illness and these psychic problems with 'strong' souls from the lower astral realm, beings not yet ascended to Light and love.


On the plus side, I have realised that all this has made me into a parapsychologist!

So, please accept my (borrowed) sharings and detective work on the role of the auric membrane in mental suffering that is conditional to spiritual interactions.

Psychic Attack

I have had a new idea about psychic attack, of how to describe it.


To reiterate, I claim that I experience psychic attack by spirits, and this earns me a diagnosis of psychosis by those experts in psychology unbelieving in such things. [I'm sorry, I wrote 'experts' in psychology, in a bitter way.]


I mentioned in my last post that there are varying recognised positive/active symptoms of schizophrenia, including hearing voices, feeling malignly influenced, and thinking one's thoughts are being controlled or negatively affected.


In trying to describe this to my mother the other day, I used the analogy of a bully. She couldn't understand how it is I was being 'hurt'. "Is it the voices?" she said.


To sidetrack, the type of spirits causing an apparent focused psychic attack on me do not just use their voices, but use mental force; I feel forces on my thoughts, 'pushing' them into painful avenues, (so I think about things that make me painfully uncomfortable). The voices I hear come from celestial and earthbound spirits, (and the mental traffic caused by close proximity with the earthbound spirits can be a major cause of stress).

So, really, the hurting can either be from psychic attack, or from being spiritually overwhelmed. To use the bully analogy, the attack is like a bully hurting me not just by "calling me names", but by physically hurting me. Except it's all at the mental level. This is the symptom of thoughts being interfered with in ways that have a negative impact.

But psychic attack can come in the form of feeling malignly influenced, as well, of feeling as if a dark cloud has been put over you, that brings sadness and bad luck. And I have that too.



So there is a division of belief in the world about psychic influence.

• One side is based on experience and is well-described in traditional belief
• The other side is based on science - on scientific method and proof, and is a newly emerging but highly authoritative school of thought.

If that unsettles you, then good, it should. I hope you think twice about applying materialistic logic to claimed spiritual experience. And maybe the rest of us could do to be less 'superstitious', in general, too.

Aspects of Thought Disturbance

The understanding of what it is to be troubled by hostile spirits is fairly common - there is a certain awareness about what that means. If you say "possessed by a devil", people will understand that someone is being severely troubled by a devil, a hostile spirit. I'd like to write more about what this means here, and notably to write about how the disturbance crosses over from the personal to affect others directly too.

For me spiritual disturbance is a force on my mind that calls attention to ideas that I may be strongly averse to, thus causing me pain; it depends on mental surveillance, on a loss of my mental privacy. Loss of mental privacy is a constant while I have ghosts around me and while I am receiving the attentions of spirits further away in the lower astral.
Secondly it is a force on my mind that corrupts and pollutes by temporarily 'possessing' my thoughts, effectively speaking through my thought-voice in ways that are unwholesome and that happen to be contrary to my natural tendencies (thus causing me pain).
Thirdly, it is a force that works with my mediumistic, psychic awareness, momentarily taking control of it and forcefully directing thoughts not of my choosing out from me towards another. So this condition seems to affect others as well. Typically the projected energies may be designed to make another think badly of me, to cause me shame and social rejection, or they can be attacks on others, on their self-esteem, or, I find, something much more unfortunate. The projections are not bound by time or space, and can occur when I am exposed to 'media' (films, radio, music), to the effect that a kind of fore-telling may be forced out of me, for example if I know that someone involved in the media recording will come to die. How? If a recording is made in 1975, and the person dies in 1983, and I know this, I will be extremely uncomfortable listening to the 1975 recording, struggling to suppress the force that seeks to take control of my psychic faculties to project out heinous revelations. This I would call strong evil. As you can imagine, this third aspect of mental intrusion leaves its mark on my conscience and reputation. I hesitated to write of this third aspect, because of the way it reflects on me, but I write about it in the hopes that it may help someone.

Perhaps, for the skeptics (!), you had been reading about the first two aspects of spirit attack with some tolerance, but then could not at all consider the third aspect of attack to be true. Well, of course, I am deadly serious in claiming the truth of this. This is why this blog is a blog about the paranormal; it deals with a reality that is unusual and far away from the everyday experience of most people. And that's good for them - they are spared the suffering and the struggles with beings of strong hostile intent. But what I'm talking about in this third aspect of disturbance is telepathic transmission of mental energies - is that really so unreasonable? Do you really think that is impossible? All of the interchanges within this syndrome take place within the psychic realm. I'm not physically sharing space with people who can be deemed pychopathically hostile.

So, now I've come clean.

Predominantly the disturbances I experience are of the first two kinds, which are very frequent, and together with the frequent mental traffic I get from hearing voices that are unwelcome, these account for the majority of discomfort I feel. Just hearing voices of a neutral kind, at the wrong time, can be extremely wearing, like "the straw that broke the camel's back", and cause feelings of total despair, exceeding personal will power to the point of leading to suicidal feelings. This is where meditation comes in, to actively seek during easier times a 'window' in the mental intrusion, and taste peace. Otherwise the troubling can seem relentless, and we despair.

Do some research, and you find that drug-taking is a cause of people needing to take steps to spiritually defend and protect themselves. I'm still trying to put a stop to this trouble for myself, to change things back to normal. I hope that for some, reading this blog will certainly be an advert for avoiding drugs and being safe during spiritual practices.

Spiritual Attack

I would like to hear from anyone who experiences disharmonious relations with the World of Spirit, especially those who have no other mental health issues. Please share with me (and the other readers of this blog) a few words in the comment section at the bottom of this post.

Take Care

I read on the Wikipedia page for Shamanism (found here) that cannabis is used as a shamanic herb (to aid the practitioner in transcendence and spirit contact); it mentions use happens for this purpose in India. This compounded my opinion, and made me think: cannabis, the drug I over-used, - apparently triggering psychosis, and spiritual and psychic awakening, is used by shamans! This again confirmed my opinion that the drug spiritualises. It is not just a 'high', "the hysterical herb" (as it is sometimes known in the Middle East), it bears solemn gifts too. Gifts I was totally unaware of. It's a shamanic herb! It opens you up to the World of Spirit! Not a toy for teenagers, or people who use it dependently.

I suppose that you invite a channel of spiritual energy to open with intensive cannabis use, and for the initiated that energy is unexpected, has nowhere to go, is not integrated, and begins then to contribute to an unsettling of the mind, in fear and paranoia, acting toxically to lead to psychosis.

For me cannabis use for the uninitiated and the young is on the same level as the Ouija board, that spiritualists so often warn people against 'playing' with or using without care and precaution: both Ouija boards and cannabis are very magnetic to spirits, and open a portal to the World of Spirit, resulting in earthbound spirits attaching themselves and inviting disturbance from spirits of 'lower' awareness.


So, I know that cannabis spiritualises, from first hand. Spiritualisation, or spiritual awakening, comes with first hand experiences of Divinity, and with great religious fervour and moral renewal; spiritual awakening apparently also comes with psychic sensitivity, that permits connection and comunication with the Spiritual. I also know that Sadhus (holy men) in India use it to get closer to God. Now I also know that it is used by shamans to assist in their opening up to the World of Spirit - and this just confirms how powerful the herb is. Here I am lamenting my former ignorance of cannabis' solemn properties, source of so much pain and trouble, and am recording my surprise at the fact that cannabis is used as a shamanic aid to transcendence, and the latter fact just confirms why I got into trouble.

Moving On: I Will Be Seeing A Trained Shamanic Healer. [Very Important Post! Read This Beauty...]

Next week I will be seeing a prestigious shamanka (female shaman) from London. Wish me luck! I will report back on the results; it's bound to bear fruit for me.

I am doing what I was told to do by the world of spirit - "Seek shamanic help", I was told when praying for help one day.


Traditionally, (according to Wikipedia), the shaman or shamanka is a healer and a mediator with the world of spirit.




PS I read yesterday that in the old days of the New Testament, the language for "oppressed by a devil" and "possessed by a devil" was the same - they used the same word for it, for someone sufficiently under the power of a malicious spirit to be oppressed by such a being. The sensation of control/possession is twofold: the feeling that the spirit has a 'lock' on me the way fighter planes can do with each other; the ability the spirits have to pressure my thinking one way or another. I wonder if the first control, the sense of being connected is to do with something happening outside the aura, like the spirit is influencing me through the aura; last night I projected my influence outside my aura space, banishing the spirit in the name of Jesus, and it seemed to clarify things, my mind felt noticeably lighter. Anyway, I'm sure this sounds confusing! I'm still just an amateur in my knowledge and special safety techniques. However I had read about overshadowing just prior to these new ideas on safety: is this a case of overshadowing that the spirit who is oppressing me can influence my thoughts? I had read, "Overshadowing is where spirit wrap themselves around the medium's aura in order to impress their thoughts and personality." (my underlining) [See Sarah Tyler-Walters' Website Voices of Spirit]. Usually this happens in a controlled way by experienced mediums surrendering themselves to the spirit world for a purpose, but what if it is a forced happening? The website says that such things cannot happen without permission, but I doubt this. Back to the safety tips, I had the sense that the top of my aura had some heaviness around it - heavy emotion and a heavy feeling too - is this how the spirit 'attacker' makes himself known? As I said, it seemed to work to direct flame-bright light in large quantities and use the name of Jesus to discourage the presence and influence of the spirit.

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OMG Excuse me for 'shouting' and swearing at the same time, I have just found a blog entry at http://magsx.blogspot.com/ called Spiritual Possession that backs up what has been said here on this post and on this blog. Take note that she says people with schizophrenia were once thought to be possessed with a devil (ie also oppressed by 'devils', see above part of this Post Script).
First quote from her post:
"However I do need to add it is possible, to those who are spiritually aware, to experience a mild to quite severe spiritual attacks or unnerving experiences carried out on them by a spirit who is either cloaked in their own darkness (hell of their own making) or they are lost souls seeking help. These can be malignant spirit people and are often themselves in a confused and disturbed state of mind."
Second quote from her post:
"In the worst case scenario, vulnerable people can be over shadowed by a spirit person giving the feeling they are being Demonic Possessed, this is however very rare. Demonic possession to all intents and purposes is the ability for a bad spirit to have an effect on an individuals mind. This can vary from mild sensations to a spirit being able to over shadow to the extent of taking control of the mind for a time, but not the body."

Third quote from her post on afterlife transition and earthbound spirits:
"I know a lot of people believe that when you pass into the next world you go into a beautiful light. That is mostly true. But some don’t. Usually those who feel that they have unfinished business or are not at peace enough to let their earthly ties go. Sometimes spirit people get stranded because they died very traumatically and on a very rare occasion, they don’t fully realise that they have died."
These quotes were from Margaret West's blog; she is apparently a fully proficient psychic medium specialising in trance - someone who "knows"!

Phew. This is immensely important for me. I put into words what I think is happening to me and then find someone else's expert testimony supporting everything I've gone through. I left her this comment:

• Hi, You don't know how helpful that post was in validating my experience!
  
  I have had painful intrusion into my mind every day for ten years. I have come through schizophrenia after excessive use of cannabis and now am left with this remaining condition - that the doc calls psychosis (because he absolutely claims that there is no sixth sense).
  
  Thank you so much for this. You don't know what it means! I have written a hundred or so posts on my blog describing and defending what happens to me, as well as offering tips for anyone else in this "very rare" position you describe, of harmful overshadowing. I am seeing someone next week who may be able to help me (shamanic tradition).
  
  
  
  Thank you so much. I will be following your blog!
  
  
  
  Yours anonymously,
  
  
  
  Mr S
  

Wow. Thank you Margaret. That's Margaret West's Blog, Connecting With Spirit. Follow her blog!

Guess I officially have to look into 'overshadowing' now.





PPS I also read something which makes it look like I have been making a mistake in my terminology: that there is a difference in meaning between the terms 'psychic' and 'medium':

• a person who is psychic is sensitive to energies around people and places
• a person who is mediumistic can make contact with celestial beings at will for information.

I guess I'm between the two, being psychically sensitive and able to hear the voice of Heaven and spirits stuck on Earth, although I don't have full interaction with my guide so as to be able to get any information at will like TV mediums do.

Warning! Opinions On This Blog May Change

I notice that I have changed my mind over a few things.

• I have attributed a significant amount of the psychic attack I get to mortals - not true, there is not such a significant amount in fact, the problem is in the spirit world, and being out of harmony in general.
• 'Delusions of reference' style telepathy (sending thoughts etc to people on TV, in films; my current stance is that it is definitely something I go through as a sender, but not certainly something received. However I believe it is possible; I have seen others doing it! I have heard it happen!

I had a hard time defining the telepathy stuff when I was writing it down in an earlier post. I am aware of what it might sound like ('irrational') when I talk about being plagued buy the thoughts of living people on Earth, or bothering newsreaders and presenters with my thoughts.
Still, the rest is as it stands, unless I find anything else in the blog's older posts that needs changing.



This is still a blog about spirit-originated psychic attack/'demonic oppression', about the condition of spirit attack overlapping with schizophrenia, and establishing credence for the happening of the former despite the presence of the latter.

Anatomy Of A Schizophrenic-Type Disorder

I once thought that my troubles emerged exclusively from mortal people.  Then I progressed to realising it was from spirits too.

Now I see:

There are spirits around me, whose behaviour is changeable (though generally more benign);
There is much ill-will affecting me from spirit-people in the astral (who seem to be spiritually like 'career criminals', rebels against the Light)
There is some ill-will from humans affecting me (namely a psychic ex-girlfriend, and from others I have wronged in the past) [PS This is a minor, minor portion of the general problem, though still real!]
That I have caused this to happen through stirring up unhappiness, and attracted it through being very fearful (I believe the profound fear I experienced in a cannabis-induced schizophrenic breakdown attracted dark spirits to me) - since the universe operated through the law of attraction and the law of cause and effect, amongst others.


I once heard a celestial voice compliment me on my powers of intellect, calling me an impressive 'psychic scientist'. I analyse my situation, and I will find a way to heal it. On one level this means changing my energetic vibration so that I attract positive spirits and interactions; this is my will. I read recently that we attract people and situations to us based on our vibration (and our vibration is derived from our inner world of thoughts and feelings). Obviously, in my really dark days of delusional jealousy with the ex-girlfriend, then encounters with what amounts to the essence of evil under schizophrenic hallucinations, I must have got stuck in a rut energetically and attracted all bad to me. - I say all bad, but it could have been worse; perhaps I got stuck with all the bad that I could attract in my days of fearful hallucinations and relatively bad karma. It's not the utmost hell, though, to put it in perspective, it sometimes is so bad that I don't like being alive.

So, I'm a psychic scientist, and I will find a cure. I will find the panacea that changes my situation and puts me on an ecstatic path of fulfilment, for the good of all.

Stumbled Across A Great Online Article

I found this article online about psychic attack that corroborates what I'm going on about here.

The essence of my condition is suffering caused by psychic attack. That's how I see it. That's emphatically what seems real to me.

The writer of the article confirms how 'schizophrenics' may be found to suffer from astral harassment.

With me however, I don't perceive any help from invoking higher powers, nor from using crystals or flower essences (though I haven't given up on them). These are quite significant forces I deal with (but I know, it could be worse, it's not absolute hell for me).


I've been thinking about this today, thinking, Why am I attracting harmfulness and rough treatment? In a world governed by the Law of attraction, I must have given some cause for this.

When I got ill I was in a deep relationship that I broke off very suddenly, because it was causing me much stress. After that I had my schizophrenic breakdown and encounter with darkness on a hallucinatory basis, and was ever after under a cloud of negativity. The person I was deeply involved with was very psychic (for a non-professional), and I have often attributed to them that they held a grudge towards me.
I did a healing ceremony today, on my own, and this person came into my awareness so clearly that I could feel their energy, and the healing brought up the history between us, and the requirement that it should be released. This is a person I have heard, telepathically, cursing me. I think it likely that this entire condition has its seeds in that other person's motive of resentment towards me - but I started it, through leaving her in an impersonal way.
A very interesting thing, the attachment with her that my healing ceremony raised.
My current theory is that this person's intense resentment post break-up served as a contagion to attract to me astral persecution. I just read about something called live haunting, which can happen when there is a problematic attachment between two people in a love relationship after they break up.
This relationship has taught me a lot about being responsible with another's heart (and my own); I figure that the massive psychic attack saga I have been through has taught me a lot about handling other beings gently, and being merciful and gracious - simply through being ingrained by  the opposite dynamic and opposing that.


I liked the validation of this article. Looking up online, I was glad to see so many entries, and so many useful ones too.

There are many forms of self-defense, but in my opinion, you really have to find the right person to help you, just as the author of the article linked above suggests.
I've found a couple of people I'm pretty sure may be able to finish this all off for me, but haven't called as yet, principally through busyness... and my social phobia that makes me averse to using the phone with strangers.


So I hope one day none of us will be haunted anymore and we will all be able to get on with our lives in peace...