More On Telepathy

I have read online somewhere that the cells in the brain that are responsible for telepathy are the ends of the neurons, called "dendrites". I think these areas are activated in people who report telepathic awareness. In my case there was a psychic denuding, experiencing a sense of mental nudity, but I think things went further, so that there was a raising of awareness, becoming more actively telepathic, and that there was some damage done also to this part of me, leaving uncomfortable openness and spiritual vulnerability. That's what I think: I opened and opened and opened until I broke my mind. It is in this damaged inner space that angry spirits intrude and can successfully exert some dominating force (possessing my thinking). Things are broken in there, to my disadvantage. And these souls also will direct malevolence to other people through my telepathic power. And God doesn't stop them. (I stop them by not watching much TV or going to theatre, concerts and so on). God doesn't stop them. It's God's wisdom that puts individual freedom ahead of group well-being. Freedom is more important; every free moment is a moment for self-discovery, meaning that God does not step in and therefore deny to the unquiet souls the opportunity to consciously become salvation-minded  

But it hurts!

Why... how can I describe the last thirteen years of mental struggle and slow evolution? The first point is that those who go before have gained knowledge that can ease the paths of those who follow. That's a great thing. To one day help someone progress past obstacles and avoid unnecessary suffering.

Interesting that a description of this journey also means tackling referring to the world of Spirit, and referring to being mistreated by 'demonic' spirits. All the time "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger", healing goes on and one day there won't be room for intruders to come in and cause upset.

By the way, well done for getting past the bit about broadcasting telepathy, if you got past it!! I know this is a topic vulnerable to skepticism, but it's something that happens. The condition here can be summed up as "telepathic openness in connection with demonic beings". This is the point which my sanity hangs on!! I have a joke that if you don't ask me about ESP or demons, then I am just as normal as anyone else. Actually this is like a religious belief that someone else does not share, an irreconcilable difference in belief that is respectfully overcome by tolerance. That's it. Being psychically active and not in immediate harmony with the spirit world we now encounter is the diagnosis. 

I prayed just a moment ago, thinking of the Virgin Mary, and I heard a female voice comment that I was sending out a wish to be met by Mary's white light (the auric energy of white light, which is God's 'colour', God's energy).  I often pray to her, but never thought about her light. The Virgin Mary is a very serious intercessor for each of us. She will always care for those who look to her for help.There is a kind of conflict going on in my mind, with the others taking delight in injury - they are unquiet souls, emotionally out of touch with God's nature, and finding more happiness in being full of hate. 

Another "hearing", from my (deceased) father, said to a spirit nearby (an unhappy wanderer), may be what you wish to read: "We ask of you the same that we ask of [...me, Mr S]: that you are not submissive". This is the key, then. Even if we cannot beat them in force, we can find peace and detachment and godliness in refusing to feel small and worthless. We are worthy of honour. We are part of a living Universe whose power transcends all conflicts. We need not feel afraid. This is a very important point. Essentially, it means that we should peacefully be aware of our dignity in the presence of an opposing force. Not to cower or beg; not to rage or injure, but assert that you and your well-being matter. To meet psychological attack with a higher awareness. 

There is some good information in this . Why do some people have their psychology upside down? Why are they hateful? God didn't make them that way.

What an amazing thing it must be for the Heavenly ones to restrain themselves from adding to conflict no Earth, or restrain themselves too from taking away suffering when it is in God's wisdom for the suffering to continue.

02 June 2011 Notes

No complaints. I don't hear complaints from the spirits around me stuck on Earth. Some of them are vituperative, rude. Some are fairly friendly.

If you could listen to my thoughts, you would know that I sometimes complain, and that I wonder what can make up for ten years of mental hardship being psychologically abused from within my mind space.

Some years ago I went to a doctor and asked for pain medicine to ease my mental suffering. "What do you mean, mental pain? Do you mean emotional pain?" He wasn't sure what I meant, and I wish I'd told him that the pain I feel is the same pain that we humans feel when someone insults us or uses rude language towards us. That would have made things clearer.

Mediumistic psychic attack at the conscious level, which must be extremely rare, parallels psychological abuse of all kinds, whether between married people or as a form of interrogation and torture. I have insight into that mental control that can take place as one tries to dominate another, noticing that it might work by "second-guessing" another, for example, or in some way preventing them from being 'assertive' and mentally strong to the extent that they cannot express themselves in ordinary sentences of speech without being contradicted. I go through some pretty major insults and trickery and 'obfuscation', as if they are toying with me (playful malice), but I am lucky in that they do not attempt to take away my power to be assertive. It is more a case of discrediting and insulting me, which is a kind of psychic violence.

Why do words hurt?

Why can words of insult or coarseness cause injury and irritation?

A secondary symptom is that I hear so much that I get comments from Earthbound spirits around me to the effect that I get a sore mind from being exposed to a sense of humour (jokes) that are far from what I feel is good. We are chalk and cheese. Why is it there are so many of these spirits? they all have the same rude sense of humour!, be it sexist, racist, or otherwise plainly excessively mischievous.

The Christian tradition calls such spirits, Earthbound ones, "Spiritus immundus" (singular), impure spirits. They certainly are that in their humour! And that humour 'perfectly' blends into hostile and abusive psychic energy.

I once went to an abbey, and heard a priestly voice say, with pity, "you are unclean". He meant that I am spiritually defiled (and I suppose also contagious) through being subject to mental intercourse with spirits of impure emotionality and intent. Strange to hear that from a spirit. (The definition of unclean I just gave was from a dictionary).

The troublesome spirits cause confusion, whether by actually interfering with my body language in public situations making me seem untrustworthy (! - true, such is their influence over my psyche), and also misleading others, higher or earthbound, spirits about my thoughts. Now I ring an imaginary bell to indicate that I am under attack, and it actually helps clarify for those spirits around me what is going on. (This must be hard to understand! But these are the facts of my everyday life). When the troublesome spirits mess with my thoughts to make them unpleasant and rude, it often is not just an injury to me but it looks for an instant like they are exactly my thoughts. So now I ring the bell (like lepers used to do to signify they were 'unclean' and contagious). The bell helps to signify that there is spiritual danger to anyone in spirit who notices.

OK, that was too hard to understand and believe, I'm sure. But I feel my normal self writing this.


There must be so many unhappy spirits either stuck on Earth or spirits of ill will close by Earth that cause humanity pollution. There must be so many of them. I wonder what God is doing about them. I wonder what God thinks about them - or rather, how he would describe them to me - he/she wouldn't say they are psychopathic, dysfunctional, because those words are dysfunctional. But still, the spirits in question must do a lot of harm, they do evil; however, essentially, they are not evil beings, because they exist, they are creatures of God.

Shortly after coming out of psychiatric hospital a few years ago, I heard a spiritual voice say "We're glad you're not mad anymore." It was just once that I heard that voice. It is very touching to have heard those words. I know it was an earthbound spirit - I can tell earthbound spirit from mortal telepathic, and good-natured spirits from badly-mannered and evil-behaved ones; I know the difference between a celestial voice and an Earthbound voice, just from having heard them once.



I have to ask myself, why don't I do something about this, and go on a massive campaign to track down someone in the world who is more psychic, more knowing and more healthy than I am who can put things right for me. Why not? Answer: a lack of mindfulness; and busy-ness; and loss of faith; and beliefs of scarcity of people with such skills; and maybe I'm not ready to be healed yet, who knows. So I have to forgive myself. It's something I consciously wish to do later, soon, but not now. For instance I'm busy now, about to move house (hopefully). but maybe I should start some distance healing with the person I have in mind. I think I'll do that actually! Contact them and ask them to see what they can do from afar (I am quite a long way from where they are, it involves a special trip).

A happy moment. We'll see what happens. I guess I'll feel happier for doing something about this, this unbelievable situation of fully conscious psychic attack by negative-thinking 'demoniac' spirits and overcrowding by ghosts.

Aspects of Thought Disturbance

The understanding of what it is to be troubled by hostile spirits is fairly common - there is a certain awareness about what that means. If you say "possessed by a devil", people will understand that someone is being severely troubled by a devil, a hostile spirit. I'd like to write more about what this means here, and notably to write about how the disturbance crosses over from the personal to affect others directly too.

For me spiritual disturbance is a force on my mind that calls attention to ideas that I may be strongly averse to, thus causing me pain; it depends on mental surveillance, on a loss of my mental privacy. Loss of mental privacy is a constant while I have ghosts around me and while I am receiving the attentions of spirits further away in the lower astral.
Secondly it is a force on my mind that corrupts and pollutes by temporarily 'possessing' my thoughts, effectively speaking through my thought-voice in ways that are unwholesome and that happen to be contrary to my natural tendencies (thus causing me pain).
Thirdly, it is a force that works with my mediumistic, psychic awareness, momentarily taking control of it and forcefully directing thoughts not of my choosing out from me towards another. So this condition seems to affect others as well. Typically the projected energies may be designed to make another think badly of me, to cause me shame and social rejection, or they can be attacks on others, on their self-esteem, or, I find, something much more unfortunate. The projections are not bound by time or space, and can occur when I am exposed to 'media' (films, radio, music), to the effect that a kind of fore-telling may be forced out of me, for example if I know that someone involved in the media recording will come to die. How? If a recording is made in 1975, and the person dies in 1983, and I know this, I will be extremely uncomfortable listening to the 1975 recording, struggling to suppress the force that seeks to take control of my psychic faculties to project out heinous revelations. This I would call strong evil. As you can imagine, this third aspect of mental intrusion leaves its mark on my conscience and reputation. I hesitated to write of this third aspect, because of the way it reflects on me, but I write about it in the hopes that it may help someone.

Perhaps, for the skeptics (!), you had been reading about the first two aspects of spirit attack with some tolerance, but then could not at all consider the third aspect of attack to be true. Well, of course, I am deadly serious in claiming the truth of this. This is why this blog is a blog about the paranormal; it deals with a reality that is unusual and far away from the everyday experience of most people. And that's good for them - they are spared the suffering and the struggles with beings of strong hostile intent. But what I'm talking about in this third aspect of disturbance is telepathic transmission of mental energies - is that really so unreasonable? Do you really think that is impossible? All of the interchanges within this syndrome take place within the psychic realm. I'm not physically sharing space with people who can be deemed pychopathically hostile.

So, now I've come clean.

Predominantly the disturbances I experience are of the first two kinds, which are very frequent, and together with the frequent mental traffic I get from hearing voices that are unwelcome, these account for the majority of discomfort I feel. Just hearing voices of a neutral kind, at the wrong time, can be extremely wearing, like "the straw that broke the camel's back", and cause feelings of total despair, exceeding personal will power to the point of leading to suicidal feelings. This is where meditation comes in, to actively seek during easier times a 'window' in the mental intrusion, and taste peace. Otherwise the troubling can seem relentless, and we despair.

Do some research, and you find that drug-taking is a cause of people needing to take steps to spiritually defend and protect themselves. I'm still trying to put a stop to this trouble for myself, to change things back to normal. I hope that for some, reading this blog will certainly be an advert for avoiding drugs and being safe during spiritual practices.

Introducing Milarepa, A Hero of the Inner World.

I have just been reading an article found here called "Inviting the demon" about the great Tibetan Buddhist poet-saint Milarepa and his adventures with demons. He went away to be a hermit and found himself harassed by demons.

I laughed when I read this, about when Milarepa first 'met' the hostile spirits:

Shocked, Milarepa politely introduced himself and asked them to
leave. At this, the demons became menacing, surrounding him while
growling, grimacing, and laughing maliciously. Milarepa was alarmed and attempted the most powerful of exorcism recitations, to no avail. The demons became even more threatening. Next, the yogin tried with great compassion to pacify them with Buddhist teachings, but they still remained, more vivid and horrible than before.

 
Clearly Milarepa couldn't find anything that worked to rid himself of the demons, not even 'the most powerful of exorcism recitations'!
 
This echoes my experience. That nothing seems to get rid of the threatening energies coming in.
Reading further in the article, I learned that Milarepa saw meeting with these spirits as a projection of his own mind - a manifestation of his own creating [read older posts to find out more about the metaphysical philosophy that we are all creating our reality in a primal sense, through our minds, whether in a more or less controlled manner]. That was interesting, and resounded with what I have been writing here.
 
If you need to love your demons, keep reading the article linked above, because it says that Milarepa also thought that these spirits were filled with luminosity and transparency, just the same as everything else. This reminded me of a near death account I read about at http://www.near-death.com/ of someone dying, and being accompanied by angels; whilst on a tour, they were shown a person who was down-and-out, lying in the gutter and drunk, and then that someone who was near death was asked by the angels what they saw - they reacted with disgust at the individual, before being shown by the angels that even this person who seemed degraded was full of love and light. To read that is an uplifting and reassuring experience - we are all filled with love and light! It is the essential nature of the universe/God's energy.
 
Milarepa strengthens himself, saying:
 
Faith grew in my mother's womb. A baby, I entered the door of
Dharma; A youth, I studied the Buddha's teaching; A man, I lived
alone in caves. Though demons, ghosts, and devils multiply, I am not afraid ....
I, Milarepa, fear neither demons nor evils; If they frightened
Milarepa, to what avail Would be his realization and enlightenment?
 
Then he invites the demons in to stay with him - symbolic of 'accepting' them, the beginning of compassion. In the article, the writer Judith Simmer-Brown says that this moment of invitation is important: instead of avoiding difficulties within our psyche, we profit by facing them and dealing with them.When Milarepa realises that the demons are projections in the world he creates and that they are not external to him but part of him, he can then 'look' at these parts to address them, rather than avoid them. And indeed he does 'look' at them, first challenging them to see who's way is stronger, the White or the Black, before boldly charging at them; they then dissolve, in fear. Milarepa has confronted his demons and won - moreover, he has settled for himself which way of living is superior - the Way of Light.
 
 
Our demons may be internal qualities, or they may appear to be outside of us, either way, this Buddhist story teaches us

• not to be afraid
• to see the perception of evil as arising from within oneself
• to accept the situation and deal with it
• to trust in goodness
• to confront darkness.

There are valuable lessons here. And it made me laugh that he couldn't get rid of them with any means he initially knew of!
 
Previously, I was confused by delusion, And staying in the dwelling

of ignorant confusion, I perceived gods who help and demons who harm as real.
Now, through the kindness of the jetsun siddha, I understand there
is no samsara to stop, no nirvana to accomplish. Whatever appears
arises as mahamudra.
With the realization that confusion is groundless, The water that
reflects the moon of awareness is clear of murkiness. The sun of
luminosity, free of clouds, Clears away the darkness of ignorance
from the edges. Deluded confusion disappears. The true nature arises from within.
The precious thought that perceives demons is the wonderful
clarifier of the unborn bias. 

Once Milarepa had gone beyond this state of awareness where he perceived evil, every moment that came to him he was able to accept and welcome.There was nothing to do, and he could be happy with all of Life. Perhaps Milarepa had gone beyond a sense of separation with the darkness, he had healed his relationship with it by not rejecting it (he invited the demons in); for how could he be whole, as someone who had once committed "black deeds" whilst he absolutely rejected evil, however pure he was in the present? There is a lesson of flexibility here. Being organic and not absolute, compassionate not judgemental. There is more humility in the purity that loves rather than judges; we must do what Jesus said, be humble in purity remembering that none is without sin, rather than "throw stones".
Being pure means healing ourselves and our perspective, rather than being closed off, separate, and living within a fixed boundary. Perhaps the sensation that there is something, an obstacle, that is very discordant in my awareness is a sign that I have been living with and making a painful judgement, which must be healed in order for there to be peace within me.
This whole syndrome of spiritual warfare could therefore be seen as a painful moment of personal growth and opportunity to take steps to move beyond polarity. Either that or live with a painful awareness forever! And I suppose it takes time, to gain the added understanding, the clarity that Milarepa mentions in his song above. Is that too ambitious? The whole thing has to progress somehow.
 
All this is a spiritual way of looking at being under the influence of hostile spirits or dark energies. It is based on unity, on a unifying perception, and it is based on the realisation that we are creative (receiving the exact nature of our Great Creator and calling reality to us in accordance with our mental activity). Also important is the respect we can have for ourselves and for all of life as being full of love and light, whatever the frightening outer appearances may be.

I rejoiced when I found this story because I identified with it. We can all be like Milarepa, and heal ourselves.

PS I found this article on Milarepa whilst investigating the integration of the shadow self. It was my idea that rather than heal all the lower astral world, I would heal the lower nature nature in myself. This article above, then, is especially interesting, as it shows interactions with the lower astral world as being a projection/extension of the self, and shows that resolution does not come by treating our stubborn demons as external beings, but by dealing with them as intrinsically linked to our mind and world-view. Rather than requiring a simple exorcism, we require careful self-analysis, and commitment to personal change. Christian demonology will examine a person's life and say, "why are you in this situation?" - and that is valid; perhaps the spirit oppression shows us that there are still unresolved areas at the edge of our consciousness that we had not quite been aware of, - perhaps we are being shown that there is another journey to be made towards psychic health, another story and adventure to undertake.

PPS It occurred to me that when Milarepa confronts the intrusive and ill-tempered spirits, he is expressing his strength, and asserting his right to his own space. Or symbolically, this means that really, love and light are more powerful than malice and fear. In the end, [according to Neale Donald Walsch's God], fear is in service of Love, and fear is ultimately an illusion. Comforting.
Secondly, going back to the point about being humble and not assuming a position of superiority based on one's level of evolution/based on right and wrong, the power struggle between Milarepa and the demons could be seen to be about dignity. They are angry, hostile; they cannot be pacified - there is a grudge between them. Only when they have been invited in can they be dealt with. Symbolically, whatever we do, we are still the same being doing it, we still have the same worth, whatever the appearance of matters - even demons deserve recognition.  This means that we cannot separate ourselves from ourselves in becoming and being pure, because there is continuity between the self that does the 'black deed' and the self that is pure (good, lightsome, godly, kind). The path of evolution requires total respect for all of Life, and we cannot proceed whilst carrying harsh opinions, because all is one. It's easy to be proud when in conflict with another, but humility is healing, - it brings peace.
Indeed, I did have a period growing up when I did things that were harmful. I still look back in a troubled way sometimes - I would benefit from looking at my personal growth and seeing who I was when all this began, and blessing my former self rather than cursing that self. It follows that the awareness of darkness cannot be healed with rejection.

Demonology II

First-hand awareness of demonology may not be my life-purpose - health is part of my life purpose, but I think my real life purpose is being useful in more mundane ways - still, this is useful knowledge to share, right?

Demonology, study of demons, and knowledge about demons.

What is a demon?

• A person (or animal?) that is in spirit, and that is in part ascension, who has not been reunited and reconciled with 'the Light', the Highest vibration of existence
• A person (or animal?) who avoids and hates the Light and seeks to extinguish it where possible
• A person (etc) who suffers, but in such a way as to not be humble, and pray for help, but holding the desire to spread suffering, particularly among those of the Light

We on Earth are in a state of grace with God; in our souls we are always full of love and light, no  matter what the appearances on the outside. Spirits may attack us, partly out of a kind of jealousy, therefore, and partly out of resentment of the Light.
Out of the body we come face to face with the origin of grace - with God, but we may avoid God out of shame or anger and other emotional conditions.

I believe there is no Devil, that God is Almighty.
I may in anger call them demons, sometimes, but those spirits who trouble humanity are not really any different to profoundly emotionally disturbed individuals found on Earth. Being a humanist, I prefer to call them what they are, spirits in part ascension, rather than create eternal divisions with terms of hatred like 'demon'. Am I wrong? My father, who happily passed on to Heaven when he died, I have heard warn me of the presence of demons and a 'high demon' - so if they 'up there' use such terms, maybe we should too. But perhaps they do so for the sake of ease, and in reality compassion would not use such labels, in reality, love can embrace spirits but not 'demons'.

In  my experience, these spirits are not the extreme embodiment of fear that we traditionally make 'demons' out to be. They are exactly like the Earthly 'psychopath' - a person who has been conditioned by fear and harm to be hostile in an unreasoning and persistent way; this is a being who wishes to win, and they make war aggressively, they are not playing a game.
However, whatever we call them, we should be "as wise as serpents, and as innocent as doves", showing compassion willingly, but not inviting hungry tigers round for dinner... These spirits may be still be more dangerous than we know, and should be treated with caution.


Talk of demons seems to be frowned upon by religion these days. Some churches still have an awareness of spiritual danger, for better or worse, but most churches in my part of the world seem to have abandoned their duty to 'cast out evil spirits' and in place of a very scientific universe that prefers to ask questions first. We have abandoned belief in the paranormal in this part of the world. This position reduces fear, certainly, but what if you are in spiritual danger? The ordinary person will not believe you, and you may not know who to turn to, and those you do turn to may not have the spiritual 'muscles' or awareness appropriate to resolving the spiritual imbalances that present themselves. Because this is about one's relationship with the world of spirit being correctly in balance, being harmonious.

We have natural defences to spiritual danger.

• There is the energetic aura, the biofield, that is a shield when healthy, (and which can be strengthened by imagining it filled with bright light)
• There is the presence of the angels and spiritual guides around us, which spreads Light
• There is the very nature of the Universe, the omnipresence of the Universal energy that guides and heals
• There is our own common sense
• There is our personal and group experience, which can help resolve a relationship with spirit that has developed in an unwelcome way (you can see someone who will help you).

I believe there is hope for all beings, that "everything is in a state of flux", so that change finds every being, and all beings 'go Home' to the Light, to God. God's power goes out everywhere, to all beings, (because it is everywhere, it is all beings), and so nothing is truly divided away from God's healing power. [This is a kind of belief in 'universal salvation', as they say, which is a little controversial out there in the realm of Earthly religious doctrine.]

So, do we call them demons, because they do great evil, or do we show compassion and call them spirits fallen into grave ill health, psychopathic spirits? I admit I can't give an absolute answer, but personally I prefer here to embrace, not divide, to heal, not reject: I prefer to call them spirits.

Demonology

Hello World, I have more to write.

I have sometimes called the spirits that bother me demons. Not the spirits that are around me on the Earth plane - these lost souls are properly called ghosts, or as I like to call them, to humanise them, ghost people, or discarnate earthbound spirit people. I have called them demons who are spirits existing in the etheric realm (not the astral, where properly housed spirits are), who choose to bother humanity (bother me).

Well it's time to rename these bothersome etheric realm spirits.

Naming them'demon' alienates, pushes away; this is not what love does. Love heals and embraces. These are the spirits of people - or the one that bothers me is anyway. In a universe of love, only love can heal, only love can restore order.

The etymological origin of the word 'demon' is linked with the Greek 'daimon', which means 'master'. This made me think, although the troublesome spirit cannot dominate the essence of me, which I believe is divine and free (same as anyone else's), the 'master' can teach us. What am I learning from the master?

I have also compared this spirit (and it's allies) to the Japanese 'stablemasters', the educators of the sumo wrestlers, who sometimes beat their proteges to harden them and prepare them for combat. So the stablemaster are like harsh but useful teachers.

Again, what do they teach me? In simple terms, the spirit is like a 'bully', but a more pronounced kind, who uses all means to injure, with focussed intent and maximum force, a bully who watches over the mind and exerts force directly upon it. What does anyone learn from being bullied?

One thing one may learn from being bullied is the pattern, the tone, the ins and outs of bullying... which one could apply to others - a soul tragedy to do so. Sometimes I worry that my identity is eroded by this bullying process - do I occasionally lose my temper too quickly, through having faced the feeling of being helpless too long? Am I becoming harsh and insensitive myself through receiving cruel treatment? Perhaps there may come a time when I wish to be a bully, and the universe may test my nature then. Better to be a hero than a bully.

To be honest I'm not exactly sure what I learn from all this.
I know I gain heroism, but it's not an especial quality of mine, it's human nature; still it's good.
I also develop compassion for my enemy. I suppose this is an example of it. If compassion is love and understanding, then this is an example of it - not wishing to demonise the enemy!! - But wishing to be on the same level as them to heal the energy between us.

In metaphysical writing it is said that once you understand what you are learning from a pattern of experience, then you can release it. There must be something major I am learning, but I do not have the awareness to clearly identify it, not yet I don't.

So I conclude by affirming the spiritual view, that there is a God, that people can be attuned to the spiritual, that we have a soul and that life persists after death, and that we always have the freedom to do what we wish - whether in this world or the next, and whether we wish to do harm or good. May you all be safe from spiritual harm; and if you are not safe from spiritual harm, may you find a refuge and a hero who can heal you.