Hierarchy Of Credibility

Today I'm going to write about a hierarchy of credibility when talking about my condition and abilities.

"The more paranormal the subject you are describing, the more careful you must be in order to seem sane to others!"

The topic of this post came to me as I was thinking about my condition. Simply put, it's easiest to talk about the most accessible areas of my experience first, this forms the base of the hierarchy, which we could say is in the shape of a pyramid. The next layer up is smaller, less accessible, and finally the highest layer is smaller still, and is the least credible reality.

• The Base: Something believable to many, thanks to the likes of Colin Fry and Gordon Smith and so on; I can tell people that I know my deceased dad is around me in spirit every day. In further detail, I can say that I believe it is possible to stay in touch with the departed, and describe mediumship as a natural ability available to all, and I can say that my family and friends in Heaven are around me in spirit every day. This is a common spiritualist reality, and not too challenging for others to take in if they themselves are reasonable beings but not very actively spiritual. In summary: I am in touch with the departed (and hear their voices in my mind).
• Layer 2: Okay so I may have neglected to say about the Base Level that I am in close contact with Person X and Person Y who were famous in their lifetimes and who are serving me in their continuing mission of Love from their celestial vantage points... but that may vary on how open a person seems to be to my description of the base Level scenario. Now on to Layer 2...: Usually accounts of this layer may be reserved for curious and disbelieving close family, for people in the spiritualist community (I mean those of Spiritualist Churches) and thirdly for spiritual healing professionals, such as the local 'shaman' / Reiki practitioner / crystal healer. These people I tell: I have ghosts around me (and I can hear their voices in my mind).
• Layer 3: ...is controversial. OK, mediumship; OK, ghosts. Not too bad, not too incredible: mediumship is part of our culture now, and ghosts have been part of our common folklore seemingly forever. Now we get controversial, and the territory is not very clearly mapped out, the territory is hard to describe to others. Baffling to interested close family, and disbelieved, refuted by the psychiatrist - and even by some spiritual healing practitioners (one I saw). I experience disturbance at the mental level from some spirits. [I won't call them lower spirits, or refer to them as being of the 'Dark Side' (the darker portion of the spirit world), nor will I call them demons for convenience, these are spirits of human beings created by the same God as created me]. This part of our culture has passed into the realms of forgotten and shunned superstition, and as a result there is no kind of credence for it commonly in society and formally in medicine. Which is OK, in ways - less superstition can be a good thing - but less safety is not a good thing. So one spiritual healing practitioner could not see in my aura any signs of attack; but another was able to notice signs of interference to two of my chakras (to the crown and solar plexus chakras). (Why the discrepancy between the observations of the two healing professionals? It is mysterious; of course I side with the person who was able to detect signs of attack, corroborating my inner experience).

There are no other layers to this pyramid.
I am lucky that the spirit disturbance is not worse than it is. It's like a serious form of annoyance, a form of psychic attack. Although in disturbing my thoughts the spirits 'possess' my thinking, they do not fully 'possess' me. Secondly the degree of evil could be worse: the attack is focused on me to injure me, but its evil is not often extreme.

It has been valuable to me to clarify this hierarchy, I hope you benefit from it too. Although things can seem incredible, they can still be true. In a world of divided belief, you must stand up for what is real to you, and you must find someone able to help you, of whom there are many.

Spiritual Help

I have spiritually seen Mother Teresa near me, once, though I had not asked for her help; similarly I have seen Padre Pio near me, though I had not asked for his help. (When people ascend to Heaven, they love to serve those of us on the Earth plane). Also Swami Yogananda came near me one day, I could dimly see and sense where he was in the room, and I clearly heard his voice say that he would help me by warding off evil.

So I am helped.

Plus there is something like a legion of helpers who are with me every day, laughing and joking with me about every little ordinary thing. I can say that I have friends from Heaven, who I have sent out loving thoughts to by way of appreciation of their Earthly work, who have come to me and are in attendance to me daily, and these friends were often famous people when alive! This is real.
I also have family members in spirit who intermingle with the other celestial friends in being by my side and making me cheerful and making me feel loved. So thanks to all of them.


Now then, we come to an interesting matter.

I have read of angels that are supposed to come and 'clear' your spiritual space when requested, for example the Archangel Michael, or the Archangel Azrael. Archangel Michael is a very popular spiritual force among new spiritual movements today, however getting his help is not so easy. I now tend to believe in angels, but think that archangels are a biblical invention. (There energies may be real though, because of many people believing in them - a complicated idea, but apparently this can happen).
I like thinking of angels, its strengthening, but I haven't been noticeably helped by them when I've asked for protection.

The biggest amount of prayers have gone out to God. Spiritual problem, spiritual solution. Well, God has not interned to stop this spiritual intrusion into my mind.
Recently I looked back through some journals I wrote when I first got ill, and for some years prayers for intervention were very common on those pages; re-reading them I felt bitter. This is a problem - wishing for help, needing help, and getting no help.
Why doesn't God help? I read God said he will not help if we can help ourselves. Since I cannot help myself in these matters, it must be that some other human can help.
Secondly, I realised that God knows what's best for me. They say that if you don't get something you wish for, then it must be in your best interests not to have it. Also, in the Christian Bible it says that God knows what we need before we ask for it. In other words, again, God knows what's good for us; there's comfort in thinking that God is fully aware of whatever trials and suffering we may be going through.
Some say that all Creation is God, so when you suffer, God is right there with you; although the Divine Spirit that is God is beyond suffering, It is absolutely aware of what we experience.
It's very difficult when God does not take away pain and tribulation, but I suppose when things are like that, we have to try something else.

It's a comfort to think that everything changes, that change finds every situation, so that either the condition leaves me, or, eventually, I leave the condition!

Metaphysically speaking, whatever we focus on grows. We are naturally creative, and we are always creating. Better then not to dwell on difficulty when we can avoid it, but to change the subject and focus our minds on some promising new direction in our lives. (This is metaphysical teaching, not my opinion).

Lastly, the fact that God does not intervene when asked, even if he is 'supposed' to, according to spiritual texts, says something. It says something about the texts and it says something about God, Life and the World. It says that the world is a powerful place, and calls us to be powerful too. It says that, surely, if God does not help, that we can help ourselves, that we are strong enough. We are strong enough to face this! It is very important that we develop the mind of the victor, of the powerful one, and not of the victim, the one who loses again and again. It is essential that we cultivate powerfulness by admiring our strengths, congratulating ourselves on our bravery, surrounding ourselves with positive imagery, by speaking positively, and by affirming that God has made us with some of his own Almighty Spirit inside. We are powerful.

I suppose I have something to learn about power. Psychic attack is essentially a power struggle, a solar plexus chakra issue, dealing with ways of relating to others, and it teaches good ways to hold our divine power. The ideal is to raise our energy, to not be angry and push and pull in aggression, but to flow and come from the heart. Jesus says that God is perfect, that God's heart is always open to us, and that when our hearts are open even to those who wish to be an enemy, then we are perfect too [The Sermon On The Mount]. As I deal with this life issue of psychic attack, I will surely increase my awareness of my own power.

We do not defeat a monster by fearing it, but by summoning our own heroism to the surface. Psychic attack by spirits could be seen as a scary reality, but it is one I have to deal with. I can get help from other people, where they are spiritual adepts, but this is very much a reality I have to deal with. Good luck finding your power and your heroic self.

Thought Force And A Detailed Explanation Of the Possiblities It Entails

Thought force is the ability of one mind to affect another.

No one person is an island to themselves, John Donne said. And so it is energetically. We are sensitive to love - and fear, generated by other people.

• One's mood can be negatively affected by another bearing us resentment
• Our thought processes can be negatively affected by another bearing us resentment
• We can be overcome by a flow of negative energy directed at us to the point that another's internal voice may enter our awareness, bearing words of ill-will.

And logically it follows that the more spiritually sensitive and spiritually vulnerable you are, the greater the danger of being negatively affected by thought force. Sensitivity is being easily aware of psychic influences, and vulnerability is more like conditional sensitivity, for example because of drug-taking. That's my belief.
I wonder how many people in the world are living with depression (or schizophrenic-type symptoms) through external spiritual influences? Can we add 'paranomal depression' to the list with 'paranormal schizophrenia' on it?


I believe it may be that thought force can cause a period of depression over the long-term.
I also believe that by 'generating a positive karma' , one can turn around these negative effects of thought force. Having given out a negative influence, possibly, one receives a negative response. Perhaps this negative response is enough to attract negativity arbitrarily. A solution would then be to start attracting positivity, to generate a positive creative magnetism. How? By giving. By giving good things. This is just a theory, but the more I give, the brighter I feel, the luckier I feel, and I feel myself to be more in good graces. But this theory does make sense. If you feel cursed, do, write, say or think something to feel blessed - and it is likely that a mere thought won't be enough, given the circumstances, so preferably do something tangible, out in the physical world. [PS "Creative Magnetism" defined: you can find out about the metaphysical fact of our natural creativity in many sources,- and one would be the famous book The Secret]. Wearing a talisman may help you - if you feel it is appropriate, one that bears a symbol that strengthens you when you remember it.

To the degree that one feels a depression to come from outside, if you are feeling emotions which, on analysis, you don't think are actually yours, but are perhaps being imposed from outside, don't own those feelings, in a loving and assertive way; affirm that they are not yours, that you are not responsible for them and are not required to change them. This could lift the weight on your emotions. Monitor your feelings to ensure you are not suffering under another's energy and that you are not trying to 'shift' something whose centre/'centre of gravity' is outside your sphere of influence.

If you are incapacitated by psychic ill will, as I have been (this sounds strange! but I mean in the general sense through the spiritual attacks), then it is likely your sphere of influence is very mental, and inward-looking. Better to have a more physical-centred state of awareness, (being grounded [see earlier post]), and to have a balanced state of receiving and giving too, interacting with others in a positive way, because there are always repercussions, and acting responsibly and positively draws back positivity to you. You become surrounded with light that dispels darkness.



All the indicators for me are pointing to the notion that, for my own good, I should start generating a positive energy around me, through genuine acts of giving, through engaging in practical positive interactions with humanity.



A brief summary:
1) 'thought force' is real
2) it seems possible that thought force can contribute to a negative creative magnetism and depression
3) it seems likely that we can change what energy we attract through giving.

Still Banging This Drum: Competing Realities

New clarity: that mine is a spiritual world-view, and is opposed to a material world-view.


Would my psychiatrist claim that there are only five senses if he had ever heard or seen or sensed with his mind directly? No,  not likely.
His is a clear material view. No God, no soul, simply a mind, five senses and a body, that's it. That's reality.


Oppositely, the spiritual world-view includes

A Deity / Deities
The individual soul and perseverance of the soul into eternity
The ability to sense spiritual reality (of God/ spirits) with the mind directly

and much more (for example, beliefs in reincarnation).

I'm quite happy with my world-view. I believe it entirely. OK, honestly, the weight of authority against me occasionally makes me wonder if I am hallucinating everything, but only for an instant. then I come back to all the friendly interactions I have. the interactions I have are mostly friendly, anyway, usually from allies from Heaven, of friends and family who have transcended to the spiritual life.


Lets look at this carefully:

Most people are not actively spiritually sensitive.
Many people call themselves spiritual but have little or no knowledge of the detail of life and the Other World that someone who has researched spiritual sensitivity has, for example a member of a Spiritualist Church.

This places spiritually sensitive people in a minority, and makes those not sensitive largely ignorant of some aspects of life.
One step further from religious beliefs, which are so common - one step further than arguments over the existence of God is the reality of the spiritually sensitive, partly hemmed in by skeptics and James Randls. As I said, I'm quite happy with my world-view. It's a good world, largely, with all its love, friendship and hope.

And need it be said that one step further from spiritualism (holding a spiritual world-view and believing in/possessing spiritual sensitivity) is any manner of conditions characterised by suffering from negative spiritual interactions. The rarity of this kind of suffering makes it so much less credible to most, though no less real. As I said in a recent post, spiritual teachers often advocate methods of spiritual self-protection, such as shielding.

For a spiritual problem, it is necessary to find a spiritual solution. Thus probably devaluing the interventions of medical psychiatry. (My psychiatrist has agreed to me cutting down on anti-psychotic medicine, as I have told him I would like to try life without it; I believe that I will be well, better off emotionally, and able to cope with my suffering - I don't think I absolutely need the medicine. But medicine is a tricky issue - always take the utmost care and make important decisions with your supervising professional). It is likely not going to help going to a materialist for help with your spiritual problem. I know how it feels to be told you are ill when you are crying out for help, - to be ignored and made wrong. There are many professional spiritual 'helaers' who can deal with problems due to negative spiritual interactions. I have found a number of such individuals in London, who I have on a list to see. I have been living with Earthbound spirit-people for years, have come to a full awareness of the fact, and am ready to deal with it, and will see atop UK professional in the area of spirit release this winter. I will record the results of that here on this blog, of course -and if she is unable to help, I will find someone else, and so on until I can get a solution.

So, I'm going to dare to say it: if you feel sure that you are suffering from spiritual problems based on negative interactions, or something similar, and people tell you you are insane, get a second opinion. There are in fact an abundance of people who can help. The people who can help you will be those who hold a spiritual world-view and believe in the reality of 'extra-sensory perception'. You can be well.

The Rarity of Problematic Spiritual Interactions Discussed

I just wrote in my last post that what I experience, that looks like classic delusions of  persecution, and seems like a reality of negative spiritual interactions, is rare. It is rare for people to be 'spiritually disturbed' (that's disturbed as in 'bothered' by mischievous or malevolent human beings in spirit). I believe it is rare. As I have said that's why it's paranormal, meaning 'beyond' normal. However in the subculture of those who are spiritual and having spiritual sensory perception, it is common for teachers to mention protection.

Being 'grounded' is important for psychic safety. This means having a close energetic connection with Earth and being grounded in everyday reality and the physical.
Secondly shielding is used, whereby a person can visualise spiritual light coming around them, often recommended to be in the shape of a large bubble or egg shape to fill the biofield; this has the purpose of dispelling darkness of all forms (including keeping at bay undesirable spiritual influences).
It's that simple.

Or is it? I have been fairly neglectful of shielding. I do it occasionally, but there is something in me that makes it difficult, enough to want to avoid trying. To be honest, it can seem as though this ability in me is weak because it is externally blocked; I may come to practice this more and develop the ability to be a strong visualiser.
Shielding is recommended for spiritual safety, as the very occurrence of visualising light around the self attracts that spiritual light to you and naturally keeps you safe and happy.


So an important point here is that spiritual teachers often recommend that we take care, to defend us from spiritual dangers, which can strike the uninitiated. One thing they will say is that drug-taking (which coincided with my problems) can be dangerous, spiritual, and I would add that the more naturally sensitive you are as a person (even if that sensitivity has not hitherto awakened) the more you should take care to avoid drug use.

When you find a website on psychic development, very often, it seems, the teachers on that website will recommend that you consciously clean the aura with visualisation, shield it, ground and stay safe. So is spiritual danger such a rarity? Clearly it is still something to be countered, even if it is relatively rare that people get bothered by spirits, entities and stuck energies.

I don't think it's just 'being spiritually sensitive' [I prefer not to say 'psychic', for clarity, as this term can be used to mean 'of the mind/soul'] that endangers a person. I think there is another element. I'd say most spiritual and sensitive people don't have problems with troublesome beings and the like. I think there must be an added element of vulnerability, perhaps in the strength, or want of it, in an individual's aura. Or perhaps some people develop great sensitivity somehow, whether through drug-taking or natural awakening, and this exposes them to danger, when uninitiated. (Being initiated means that you know you something, and here it means that you know how to be safe, for example through grounding and shielding and avoiding spiritually unsafe habits.)

Different people have different spiritual gifts, some sensing vibrations of trees and people, for example. others being able to sense atmospheres in a room. As you will know by now, my gift is to hear the voices of people in Heaven, and of Earthbound spirits [(ghosts)], and my trouble is picking up the attention of spirits in part-ascension [stuck in their spiritual evolution and focusing attention of discontent on the earth plane]. I'm not lucky enough to feel vibrations or atmospheres, but I know people who can. I call these gifts, because 'when horse is before cart' (and not vice versa), these abilities truly are gifts, that we carry into physical existence and that can serve ourselves and other people.

I know that you can be very afraid reading about spiritual 'bogies', and I think this needn't be. In this universe (and in any universe), beings are supposed ot be safe and live happily; this is the natural direction of things. However, different levels of sensitivity, I think, come with different degrees of difficulty, although most will not be affected. You have to find what's right for you. I don't even like to think about some things that are supposed to be out there (in the ether), as a way of not attracting them to me. For me, I stick to positivity and hope. That's my solution. You may feel instant benefit from 'shielding'. You may find someone to help you heal first time seeing them. You may need to seek solitude and pray and fast. Something will work whatever your situation.
They say "the mills of the gods grind slow, but they grind small" - it may take time, but when things are better, they will be very good. I have read that life can move in large cycles, over several years. It may be that you have to 'play at Odysseus', and be vulnerable for some time before things get ironed out - but then you will be very strong and happy, and know that your sensitivity is a gift.

So Happy - Read Me!

It might seem like a minor thing, but I was overjoyed to see a statistic on my blog. It seems I have a readership!

I don't have a proper 'stat counter' (yet), but I do have AdSense turned on, and so I saw that I gained a click as a reader clicked onto another site from Diagnosis: Schizophrenia!

I am so happy. thank you to my readers. I see in this that what I am doing is valued, and that is worth much.

I feel I have something to offer, being able to write here for the world about an unusual condition, of schizophrenia fused with spiritual awakening and the rarity of problematic spiritual interactions. Either I help those who can identify with me, or I help further students of the evolving medical movement that is psychology.

                                               T H A N K    Y O U,   R E A D E R S!  

Clarity

I am aware that my clarity changes. I am aware that sometimes my writing is more credible than at other times, I guess due to my mood on the days that I write; sometimes I am able to write more clearly.

My writing here is often persuasive, and because it can be hard to talk about what is a marginal reality, some days the writing accomplishes the opposite of what is intended. My intention is to create a case for a different interpretation of my condition to the diagnosis of psychosis given by medical psychiatrists.

Secondly, my writing on this blog has caused my world-view to evolve. You may have noticed that I began talking about those spirits who disturb me as being like 'demons', because of their influence, and then I progressed into a less inflammatory and more compassionate terminology, now seeing those human beings as ones who have forgotten their nature as divine entities.
This forum for writing is changing my point of view, causing a 'clarification' of my perspective.

Why does my clarity fluctuate otherwise? This is an interesting indication, I suppose of the condition of us all, that our mood and clarity changes daily with depression, with alertness, with food intake and exercise - and with emotion, so that sometimes I may write more subjectively, and at other time with more clarity.