Progress Report Very Good Long General Post On Spirit Attachment/Haunting

I am not 100% sure that my inner conversations with spirits in lower state are really objectively real. I certainly believe it is possible for a person to be haunted and talk to spirits they can't see, who are there all the time.

My "attaching spirits" came when I was in psychiatric hospital. I was in distress, afraid of another patient and I felt a watermelon sized orb 'jump' from that patient into my aura area. After that time I heard a voice of the same ethnicity as that patient who had been near me.

There are other signs, such as, I knew the full name of that patient, and the spirit has the same given name and family name (information I have picked up over the years of attaching).

In the first year I was as if in a dream and accepted the haunting soul as a friend... Bear in mind I had just had a breakdown. Then after that first year, he turned malicious for a reason unknown to me and began to bully me with harsh language.

That was nearly twelve years ago that I was in hospital and this began.

I believe, as many spiritual healers do, that it is possible for people to pick up these orb-souls who are themselves attached to the things of Earth life (in the case of my attachee, cannabis and sexual congress) and who may be afraid to go on (he had committed a crime) and who may or may not be someone with a history that has led them to choose to be psychologically violent (as my attaching ones are). 

At present I have this long-standing spirit and one other of two years' attachment and a third that changes completely every few months, as well as transient 'visitors' who come to add criticism or harassment. 

I read a long time ago that if these types of being come to you, there are probably three of them at once, and also they are able to come to you in moments of weakness like unconsciousness and after trauma (like for me, psychiatric breakdown).

I had in fact had the sensation of more distant, unidentifiable souls watching over my mind and pushing my thoughts around to hurt me in dark ways for some eight years previous to the intrusion at the hospital. This surveillance began after I recovered from psychotic breakdown in 1999 which was brought on by intensive cannabis smoking, starting after one month and progressing through a total of ten months of intensive use. Drugs, according to the spiritual community, of any kind, whether alcohol or cannabis up to the powerful hallucinogens, can weaken the aura's boundaries and make it permeable to spirit intrusion.

I write this to help others. I don't feel I am breaking any great taboo, because there are many who guide on this subject online, I only write from experience as well, adding what I have known.

I have quite a lot of insight on psychic conflict and dealing with abusive minds without much personal space or distance. It is a daily fight, but now I come to realise that if I fight to defend myself, whether in defending my sense of space inside or my sense of basic comfort, or my self-image, or what appears to be the truth or what is good - if I perform any of these apparently essential functions, I reinforce their reasons to attack and their illusions that lead them to aggression.

This may as well be arguing about the way the moon tastes with someone who thinks it is made of green cheese... I'd like to open up a little door here, and say that all of this is a simple extension of the belief in the persistence of life beyond death, which journey most souls make in a simple fashion, while others after dying seek to stay near Earth out of fear of the Life beyond or confusion as to what happened at death, or out of 'attachment' to Earthly things. Some may have had little spiritual belief or have been less conscientious in Life and so gravitate backwards after their reality suddenly expands at death.

Dying is one thing, it is said that after dying there is a grand spiritual experience, like an encounter with Grace in full. So no need to worry about that. But there is also choice over what happens then. Spirits (people liberated from mortal form) either go up to further evolution or cling to Earth. I believe in universal salvation, so all of Life keeps on moving and changing and growing and becoming brighter and warmer. Every soul finds its way Home. Not a home that exists on Earth somewhere down your street, but a world more perfect and beautiful and joyful that is eternal. Everything changes.

Do I need to write anything about Deity, that is all-powerful and great and good? I believe in a Deity, and would like to know that One better. It is said God's nature is bliss that could be described as like a million pleasures at once, and that God is Love so great that He gave HIs son Jesus to us on Earth knowing that soul was so great he would be killed for that greatness.

What is God's will in haunting, which can seem so confusing? I have to believe that universally, God fully prefers mortal people to be undisturbed by Earthbound spirits. There are complexities of metaphysical explanations as to what is going on, but I think we are guided to health and happiness in Life when there are such conditions. We are not left abandoned to the situation. 

Why can I hear intelligent-sounding voices in my brain that have no obvious immediate  physical origin? Astounding. It is called being psychic, in these times. In other words, it is a human faculty to hear the voices of gods and ghosts - we can know Spirit. (Some traditions call Deity "Spirit"). Extra-sensory perception is actually spiritual perception, knowing of a spiritual reality beyond that dense world of the five senses.

In this way, haunting shows us our sensitivity as we are aware of a world beyond that otherwise known.

I have written enough here for now. Thank you for reading, and be safe!

  

    

I'm Lucky, Because...

I realise that I am lucky with the haunting I have, because they do not cause me any problems of addiction. I have read that if you are someone who has ghosts around you, then they can pass on parts of their thinking or behaviour to you, for example causing you depression or alcoholism or any kind of compulsions. I don't get that, and in that respect I consider myself lucky. If you read this blog, you will know by now that the real problems I have with haunting are to do with what is known as verbal abuse or psychological abuse from spirits. I suppose in the old days they would have called such abuse the attacks of the devil.


In the last week I have obtained a Christian crucifix with the medal of Saint Benedict behind Jesus' head (which medal is traditionally used for exorcism and spiritual well-being).

I have also begun annointing myself with water (local spring water, which I don't feel particularly the need to bless by prayer or ritual - my intention is strong enough; but you can bless water by leaving it in the sun for some hours or by making the sign of the cross or other powerful symbol over it). I do this having researched holy water a little, learning that holy water is used to remind Christians of Baptism, which purifies and washes away evil and blesses and gives Life. That's a powerful thing for me, and it's important in realigning myself and dedicating myself to the Power of Powers. That's a kind of thing you might read about in a psychic protection handbook.

I have also made an appointment to see a lady in London with experience of psychic healing, who treats psychic attack and heals the aura, who is a psychic medium. I have faith in her. That's at the end of the month, so we'll see what happens. They say that healing is internal, not external, of the soul, and occurs (I suppose) in God's good time - healing happens when it is right to happen. The lady has trained with the Spirit Release Foundation and Sue Allen, so I am 100% sure she is genuine, and not a fraud, as some people out there are who offer esoteric help.

I have also come to understand, from thinking about one spirit around me, that when people act in ways that don't make sense to cause harm, it is because they are unhappy at the soul level, principally the crown chakra or top two chakras (third eye chakra as well). The crown chakra is to do with the connection a being has with the universe, and perhaps feelings of self-worth in relation to Divinity. This is kind of an insight, kind of an intuition, but it rings true with me. Also note that spirits have souls, just as we in dense form have souls. I know that in Heaven we are close to God again, and also united with our Higher Self, but I suppose that soul awareness is something bigger that Heavenly souls learn to access, just as we can on Earth. As I understand it, God makes us by putting all the Light he/she can into our bodies (!), but there is still some left over - a lot in fact, and that is the soul. That's how I see it, and I say that's a reliable way of seeing it, too. In my culture we might refer to people as souls ("lost souls", "poor souls", "save our souls" (S.O.S.)), but the soul, according to my beliefs, is something in us and something more than us, at once like God in nature, but also less than God in nature. This perspective could well be reassuring to spirits, to understand that there is more and that they can evolve.
But, going back to our spirit who is badly-behaved without being able to explain why, it is because they are having some funny thoughts about Life and Who They Are in relation to All That Is. So we can pray for them to become aware and knowing and trusting of Life.






Mr. S.

02 June 2011 Notes

No complaints. I don't hear complaints from the spirits around me stuck on Earth. Some of them are vituperative, rude. Some are fairly friendly.

If you could listen to my thoughts, you would know that I sometimes complain, and that I wonder what can make up for ten years of mental hardship being psychologically abused from within my mind space.

Some years ago I went to a doctor and asked for pain medicine to ease my mental suffering. "What do you mean, mental pain? Do you mean emotional pain?" He wasn't sure what I meant, and I wish I'd told him that the pain I feel is the same pain that we humans feel when someone insults us or uses rude language towards us. That would have made things clearer.

Mediumistic psychic attack at the conscious level, which must be extremely rare, parallels psychological abuse of all kinds, whether between married people or as a form of interrogation and torture. I have insight into that mental control that can take place as one tries to dominate another, noticing that it might work by "second-guessing" another, for example, or in some way preventing them from being 'assertive' and mentally strong to the extent that they cannot express themselves in ordinary sentences of speech without being contradicted. I go through some pretty major insults and trickery and 'obfuscation', as if they are toying with me (playful malice), but I am lucky in that they do not attempt to take away my power to be assertive. It is more a case of discrediting and insulting me, which is a kind of psychic violence.

Why do words hurt?

Why can words of insult or coarseness cause injury and irritation?

A secondary symptom is that I hear so much that I get comments from Earthbound spirits around me to the effect that I get a sore mind from being exposed to a sense of humour (jokes) that are far from what I feel is good. We are chalk and cheese. Why is it there are so many of these spirits? they all have the same rude sense of humour!, be it sexist, racist, or otherwise plainly excessively mischievous.

The Christian tradition calls such spirits, Earthbound ones, "Spiritus immundus" (singular), impure spirits. They certainly are that in their humour! And that humour 'perfectly' blends into hostile and abusive psychic energy.

I once went to an abbey, and heard a priestly voice say, with pity, "you are unclean". He meant that I am spiritually defiled (and I suppose also contagious) through being subject to mental intercourse with spirits of impure emotionality and intent. Strange to hear that from a spirit. (The definition of unclean I just gave was from a dictionary).

The troublesome spirits cause confusion, whether by actually interfering with my body language in public situations making me seem untrustworthy (! - true, such is their influence over my psyche), and also misleading others, higher or earthbound, spirits about my thoughts. Now I ring an imaginary bell to indicate that I am under attack, and it actually helps clarify for those spirits around me what is going on. (This must be hard to understand! But these are the facts of my everyday life). When the troublesome spirits mess with my thoughts to make them unpleasant and rude, it often is not just an injury to me but it looks for an instant like they are exactly my thoughts. So now I ring the bell (like lepers used to do to signify they were 'unclean' and contagious). The bell helps to signify that there is spiritual danger to anyone in spirit who notices.

OK, that was too hard to understand and believe, I'm sure. But I feel my normal self writing this.


There must be so many unhappy spirits either stuck on Earth or spirits of ill will close by Earth that cause humanity pollution. There must be so many of them. I wonder what God is doing about them. I wonder what God thinks about them - or rather, how he would describe them to me - he/she wouldn't say they are psychopathic, dysfunctional, because those words are dysfunctional. But still, the spirits in question must do a lot of harm, they do evil; however, essentially, they are not evil beings, because they exist, they are creatures of God.

Shortly after coming out of psychiatric hospital a few years ago, I heard a spiritual voice say "We're glad you're not mad anymore." It was just once that I heard that voice. It is very touching to have heard those words. I know it was an earthbound spirit - I can tell earthbound spirit from mortal telepathic, and good-natured spirits from badly-mannered and evil-behaved ones; I know the difference between a celestial voice and an Earthbound voice, just from having heard them once.



I have to ask myself, why don't I do something about this, and go on a massive campaign to track down someone in the world who is more psychic, more knowing and more healthy than I am who can put things right for me. Why not? Answer: a lack of mindfulness; and busy-ness; and loss of faith; and beliefs of scarcity of people with such skills; and maybe I'm not ready to be healed yet, who knows. So I have to forgive myself. It's something I consciously wish to do later, soon, but not now. For instance I'm busy now, about to move house (hopefully). but maybe I should start some distance healing with the person I have in mind. I think I'll do that actually! Contact them and ask them to see what they can do from afar (I am quite a long way from where they are, it involves a special trip).

A happy moment. We'll see what happens. I guess I'll feel happier for doing something about this, this unbelievable situation of fully conscious psychic attack by negative-thinking 'demoniac' spirits and overcrowding by ghosts.

Report On Trip To See A Shamanic Healing Practitioner

On Wednesday 01 December I made my way across many a snowy mile of British landscape, boarding three trains and a bus, and finally, after some delays, found the home of the healer who was to help me.


A lot of time was spent talking and identifying causes of stress and obstructing beliefs, which she helped me with using various psychological techniques. This revealed a boundary problem with someone I knew, who I sometimes meet in dreams, who I have to tell to respect my space, and this relationship still causes me discomfort at the thought of it, though it ended more than a decade ago; - she later checked for etheric attachments with this person.

As I tried to explain the 'symptoms' of my condition, I could feel that she was skeptical of my account, at first not understanding what I meant by "a force coming from above and compelling my thoughts into painful avenues"! I could feel that she was incredulous of it, but as time went on, she seemed to give credence to the situation.  She said I had a nice energy, and that I was oviously being helped by some good spirits (from what I told her).

Passing her hand over my aura to look for problems, I felt her hand's energy interactting with mine in a 'tingling' way, and when I told her this, the healer said that I must be super-sensitive to energies.
She cleared a large blockage she sensed to be 'above' me (in my aura, I presume - I wondered if this was from being unhappy with my spiritual sensitivity). She used a special burning wood to clear the aura.

The lady works with old Incan spiritual medicine, and during the healing, I had visions of Incan-type people looking at me, who wore large vertical crowns, as if they were spiritual royalty coming to supervise the healing. I also saw the head of a piece of wheat very  clearly, which I hope was there as a sign of health. During a moment when I was told to project pain outisde of me onto a special stone that she would later 'clear' of pain, I saw two faces of suffering spirits, who were again Incan in genealogy - their energy was very 'heavy'.

I was still getting signs of  spirit presence whilst in her house, and still getting painful tuggings at my thoughts during the shamanic healing part of the session. I said to her at the end, "Is there an instant fix?" and she said, "This work I do is the best instant fix that I have found". My point was that she hadn't released the spirits around me or banished the negativity from my awareness where I have been interacting negatively with the World of Spirit.
However, she said that certain practices weaken the aura by thinning it out, such as drinking alcohol or taking drugs. She gave me four important pieces of advice:

1. Take care of the aura by avoiding alcohol and drugs, which through making the aura thin and more ethereal, make a person more attractive to wandering spirits.
2. Ground: connect to the Earth through imagination and visualisation every day. This helps the aura be strong.
3. Keep a sense of humour and not feel drained immediately every time there is an unwelcome psychic interaction.
4. Be commanding and assertive. We identified that the problems I was having (uninvited spirits in my living space and mental intrusions) were essentially boundary issues to do with personal power on an energetic level. I realised that I don't like being commanding. She recommended that I pray something like the following the prayer: "O God, it is commanded that I have personal space...", so that the command is in the "third person" and cannot be argued with by my mind.

I was saddened that there was no instant fix. That's an eye-opener, isn't it? It puts the emphasis on personal effort. But I still have faith that others specialising in spirit release and psychic attack may be able to help me (of which there are such people, I have found).

I know that the healing and conversation helped me. The talking therapy helped me be stronger, and the shamanic healing was comforting, as she sang songs to the spirits for help. Lying in bed today, I was happy when I sensed a strong and kind Incan spirit come near to pay attention to  me.


I am determined to ground regularly now. I can find visualising difficult, but I will do this. I have begun imagining standing on a large white flower (a chrysanthemum), with a red, grounding glow inside it. I have also imagined my feet wrapped in a red light, like the colour of the lava deep within the Earth. It may take me some time to build up to more advanced visualisations, but I feel like what I am doing now is useful.


Yesterday was a good experience. The person who looked after me was sharply clever, well-trained, funny and strong; I was impressed by her sensitivity and connection with Spirit.

So I must become stronger, more commanding, more self-disciplined, and make efforts to preserve my health. In a few days I will receive some new books on spiritual self-care that I ordered online. It's time to gain some expertise.

Take Care

I read on the Wikipedia page for Shamanism (found here) that cannabis is used as a shamanic herb (to aid the practitioner in transcendence and spirit contact); it mentions use happens for this purpose in India. This compounded my opinion, and made me think: cannabis, the drug I over-used, - apparently triggering psychosis, and spiritual and psychic awakening, is used by shamans! This again confirmed my opinion that the drug spiritualises. It is not just a 'high', "the hysterical herb" (as it is sometimes known in the Middle East), it bears solemn gifts too. Gifts I was totally unaware of. It's a shamanic herb! It opens you up to the World of Spirit! Not a toy for teenagers, or people who use it dependently.

I suppose that you invite a channel of spiritual energy to open with intensive cannabis use, and for the initiated that energy is unexpected, has nowhere to go, is not integrated, and begins then to contribute to an unsettling of the mind, in fear and paranoia, acting toxically to lead to psychosis.

For me cannabis use for the uninitiated and the young is on the same level as the Ouija board, that spiritualists so often warn people against 'playing' with or using without care and precaution: both Ouija boards and cannabis are very magnetic to spirits, and open a portal to the World of Spirit, resulting in earthbound spirits attaching themselves and inviting disturbance from spirits of 'lower' awareness.


So, I know that cannabis spiritualises, from first hand. Spiritualisation, or spiritual awakening, comes with first hand experiences of Divinity, and with great religious fervour and moral renewal; spiritual awakening apparently also comes with psychic sensitivity, that permits connection and comunication with the Spiritual. I also know that Sadhus (holy men) in India use it to get closer to God. Now I also know that it is used by shamans to assist in their opening up to the World of Spirit - and this just confirms how powerful the herb is. Here I am lamenting my former ignorance of cannabis' solemn properties, source of so much pain and trouble, and am recording my surprise at the fact that cannabis is used as a shamanic aid to transcendence, and the latter fact just confirms why I got into trouble.

Near Death Experience Insights

There is a great website called www.Near-Death.com, where you can find compiled accounts of the afterlife experienced by certain people who have been clinically dead, left the body and gone to Heaven (or elsewhere) and then come back to their bodies and back to life on Earth, and told others about what they learned.

Reading this website I gained great comfort in my thinking about God and the afterlife and how God feels towards every one of us. People tend to come back with a message of comfort and love and joy.

PS Reading through the section "How To Escape From The Earthbound Realm", in the interest of helping earthbound spirits, on the webpage entitled "The NDE and Hell" (found here), I came across this statement by Near Death experiencer Dr George Ritchie:

"The living have auras of light surrounding their bodies. If the aura becomes distorted through alcohol or drugs, an earthbound soul can temporarily possess the body."

- This reminded me of my own situation, when my troubles began from using cannabis. As I have stated before, it hinders the aura, so that what is essentially an organ for downscaling the cosmic Light that allows the Light to bless and give to us, is disabled in its secondary function, its naturally ability to keep 'darkness' ('dark' intent, malice, ill will, psychic hostility)at bay. In my situation I was troubled by disturbance at the thought level by spirits of lower realms. [Take note of the page linked above, in the section "Negativity Must Be Removed To Enter Heaven", where Arthur Yensen writes, "After death, if a soul has been too bad, they go to a realm of lower vibrations where their kind of thoughts can live. If they entered heaven, they would be annihilated by the Master-Vibration of God."]

Also, I just read something on the same page (a page I have read and been back to a few times), that helps explain the psychology of the souls that do evil. Mellen-Thomas Benedict reports a revelation from God, that "What all people seek, what sustains them, is love...What distorts people is a lack of love." What distorts people is a lack of love. What takes a person directly to God after death is a strong awareness of love within them; what keeps them away from God after death is the antithesis of love, - whether fear and a weak awareness of love, or the fear and hostility that arise from having been distorted by a lack of love.
'Awareness of love' means how much you love and feel loved - many 'New Age' sources, as well as ND experiencers, say that love is actually the centre of Life, and the gains we make in Life are in the moments when we are loving. It figures that one's awareness of love is key for a successful transition after the moment of physical expiration.

So that's all, just wished to recommend a site, and make a note of the personal point about drugs affecting the aura and making me/anyone susceptible to telepathic disturbance by spirit-people who have a lesser awareness of love than those in Heaven; and the solution that the ND experiencers keep coming back to, is to hold an awareness of love to be safe from hostile spirit-people.

Spirit Attachment

So, I must have spirit attachments. that's what it means when you have earthbound spirits with you who go with you wherever you go and who 'live' (/squat) in your home with you.

We have:

• Mohammad; aged 37ish? on 'death', of Pakistani origin, I think, since he sounds just like someone I met in psychiatric hospital who was from Pakistan originally -presumably M chose to jump ship and come with me at the time, for his own reasons.
• Marjory; I think her name is Marjory - why not? That is the name I got when I mentally asked for it. She is quite elderly, usually a little stressed.
• [Young man, name unknown]; can be ornery (moody, rude).

The two Ms can more or less put words in my mouth, so I know what they are saying, kind of like a result of unskilled channelling. Mohammad's favourite words are "Result!" and "Jesus"... (used as interjections).


- Imagination? Or a spirit reality?


It's been two years like this. For some reason my awareness of them clarified at some stage. and I began to realise I had spirits ('ghosts') around me.

I don't know their stories, they don't tell me. I know Mohammad does not wish to be here 'forever'. He often used to say, emphatically, "We're real", just on it's own like that; maybe he is a siprit hero for raising my awareness.

They are highly conscious, the same as you or I - these are not spirit fragments or energetic imprints in a place.

In their point of view, they may be looking for somewhere energetically 'warm' to be near (ie me, an energetically more active person through being spiritually aware); for my point of view, these are not terribly disturbed souls causing havoc, but they are an intrusion at times... Sometimes we are both unwelcome to each other, by fact - they do not wish to be here (I presume), and I prefer to have privacy, like any one else.

I tell them, I am sensitive, not an exorcist, I don't know how to move them on to the Light. However, I read that as their attachment to the Earth and it's world of things and people fades, then if they turn their attention to God, they will find that the 'Light', the eternal presence of God, grows clearer, brighter, stronger and warmer, leading to their successful transcendence. But I'm not an exorcist, they are still here.


Spirits from the Heavens / angels haven't lead them Home yet, either.

Their attachment can be 'positive', in that they love Earthly things enough not to prefer to move on, or 'negative', in that they are afraid to move on, or it can be just that they don't know how to move on. Surely for someone helping a spirit, the merit must be very high. I mean, it's an extremely good deed.





I have seen one professional exorcist (who may or may not have been the real deal), one crystal healer, and two shamanic healers, all of whom have not been able to detect attached spirits. This is through their own inability, I believe; I think someone more in the spiritualist line of capability may be able to help me, someone clairvoyant and clairaudient enough to detect their presence - of which there are many such people.
I know this does not really stand in my favour as a testimony to the fact of spirit attachment, that they went undetected. the crystal healer for example only saw certain things in trance; one of the shamanic healers only told me in an overarching sort of way that I am strong enough to get my health/normality back.
However, I wouldn't be surprised if the spirits 'hide' from healers, through fear or unreadiness to move on.

I am at fault for not finding more help, but that's life - I mean, I have my own life to contend with, a hundred different things that need attending to, and the dripping tap of ghost presence, surprisingly, amidst serious serious psychic attack, depression, fatigue and daily requirements, gets a bit lost. You keep having to remember and remind yourself of what needs doing. "Terrible, you may think, he's living with ghosts, and not helping them" - well yes, I am, you get used to it, and in the overall scheme, a little more time earthbound doesn't seem to hurt anyone too much within that context, frankly.
I tell them "Very soon", they will be home. Next week I am seeing a healer, who may be able to help. I will keep looking as and when I can find someone and organise it.

I think the best piece of advice to give myself or someone in my position is to find a spiritualist church. I've tried this, so, addendum - find a spiritualist church that will help you. [Again, I had the "you're strong enough to rule your world and send anything away you don't want affecting you" line from the people I saw, when help would have been preferable.]


Three kinds of spiritual awareness, to reiterate:

1. Earthbound spirits around me 24/7 who I hear circumstantially and communicate with
2. Visiting friendly spirits from Heaven (Eg family), coming frequently every day, who I hear and communicate with
3. Sensing of spirits partially visiting, 'from above' causing mental disturbance (painful thought interference).

Apparently with spirit attachment, there's a danger of blending of personalities, so you become like them; there's a danger of addiction, so you/they don't want to let go. I can identify. When all this is over.. I don't know what it will be like to have peace and quiet, and privacy.



I'm getting angry again, writing this post! I have to remember the Light, which is all goodness, that we come from, and remember my mantra of compassion for these souls:

All souls go Home.

- I believe all souls find their way back to the Light, whether as a place, or as a condition of the heart (of the emotions, of morality). Hope.