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Wednesday, 8 December 2010
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Visualisation For Spiritual Health
Visualisation for me is a bit of an uphill struggle.
The first time I got into visualising, I felt someone jump into my awareness blocking it, someone who I knew when I first got ill. The sense at the time was that they were preventing themselves from being injured in some way.
Three days ago I was attempting to 'put on my astral clothes'- I was shielding myself - and one of the Earthbound discarnate people around me [i.e., one of the "ghosts" around me] forcefully obstructed the visualisation.
So I can feel blocked in my visualising. - It may be to do with being bonded or attached to others energetically, so that to serve myself in this way starves another. Or as, I sensed the other day, it could be from fear of being cut off and starving for vitality. Obviously if you have attracted Earthbound spirit people, who I'm told are very light in their energy, then they, being at present attached to you, will oppose you making your own energy grounded and healthy (that is, denser or stronger).
It may be then, that if you are just starting to redefine and reclaim your energetic territory, you will come across attachments from others who are effectively using some of your vitality that you have been ignoring.
Esoteric spiritual teachings on subtle energy inform us that it is possible to be bonded to others energetically; these bonds, or 'cords' come through fear and can be conduits of energy. Perhaps the first person I noticed blocking my attempts to work on my aura, written about at the beginning of this post, had previously noticed that I had been drawing on his energy, and attempted to stop what he saw as one act of 'vampirisim' too many. It sounds far-fetched that I would have a waking interaction with the distant mind of someone else living, but there it is.
Also, it is well known that spirit presence can cause fatigue, from earthbound spirits actively taking away a person's own allotted subtle energy that they gain from the Earth. Some people use terms to describe the situation such as saying that the person around whom the spirits are gathered is a 'host', a word borrowed from the terminology of parasitism, as if the ghosts are etheric parasites.
Earthbound spirits are likely very fearful, being held in place by fear, by attachment to the things of Earth when they should or could transcend everything and reunite with Divine Light; when they loosen attachment to everything of Earth,. in order to become closer to the Light, they necessarily must let go of the energy of whoever they are around. So, if you can encourage a spirit to let go of your energy, you are also encouraging them to be closer to God and their rightful place in the universe. David Furlong, an experienced spirit worker, attests that wherever there are Earthbound spirits, they are causing an energetic imbalance. That is, they are upsetting the natural order of the flow of Earth energies for people, places or animals. They are causing the energy for the people or places where they are to be unhealthy, - some say risking illness or fatal illness for the people they are attached to.
Perhaps we must fight to be fed, like the smallest animal in a litter. We are alive and we have the right to vitality. We equally have the right to our own 'space'. We have the right to privacy and not to share company with others unwillingly. If you are trying to strengthen your aura, and someone else has their foot in your door, a foot in your space, then get them out. This is an exploration of power, an exploration of personal power. Allow yourself to expand into your space and use the amount of space you are naturally heir to.
I have been successfully imagining a large amount of fire burning in front of me, which I hold in my hands (in my mind's eye). I have been successfully imagining standing as if in half a sphere of clear crystal permeated with bright red glowing light, and having another corresponding more oval shape of clear crystal above me filled with bright fiery golden light. This has helped me feel strong. The red light connects to the Earth (grounding), the golden light connects to the Sun (vitalising).
I have felt strongly opposed in my shielding: I have felt a LOT of resistance in attempting to imagine myself surrounded by shielding light. But with practise, something has to give way - and anyway the light will accumulate around me (it is supposed to accumulate with repeated visualisation).
Obviously the resistance raises the point that my well-being and that of the Earthbound spirit people around me is in conflict; but I have been told recently (by the healer I saw) that I should be forceful and commanding, to own my space. From the encounters I have had with this opposing will, I feel that the ghosts' attempts to stop me are unnecessary.
I also feel it is possible that there is some blocking occurring from more distant spirits, the darkened souls with whom I am familiar, but out of malice not need.
Just as there is an opposing force to my general well-being and auric health, so I also feel that there is a "foot in the door" keeping my psychic senses open, effectively keeping my mental awareness 'public'. I have just been reading about the 'Gatekeeper' spirit guide who is endowed with the task of monitoring and restricting our psychic awareness; unfortunately, according to the author whose book I have been reading, we can lose our Gatekeeper sometimes through profound stress and sudden psychic opening -that definitely seems like the truth to me. I have been recently praying to come back into contact with a Gatekeeper guide. [Perhaps they need me to continue with my aura work and assertiveness before they can come back into power in my life.]
I just put the wordsand into the Google search engine, and there seems to be a good amount of information on this.
I guess, from a cursory glance, that any meditation work that helps you connect with your spirit guides in Heaven will bring you closer to your Gatekeeper, because they are the same. A professional medium, for example has a strong connection with their guides; I don't, I have had one totally clear vision of one of my guides, probably my chief celestial human helper, - but that's all, we could be a lot closer. Guess closeness with guides is something I can explore and is a possibility open to me further along my path.
But, until I come into formal contact with my Gatekeeper, I can pray, be assertive/forceful and persevere in maintaining my auric health.
So if you have similar problems of enforced openness and an imbalance of giving energy to others,
PS Just spent some time reading about "the gatekeeper". Some people say your guide and your gatekeeper are the same person; - however opinion seems to differ on this.
Again, I have been reading that guides can't always magically sort out every single issue of spiritual safety; there is an element of luck, I suppose and, as I have just read, an element of self-responsibility: as you grow in awareness, it's time to start looking after your subtle energy body with auric hygiene (washing through the aura with Light), grounding (e.g. imagining being deeply rooted into the Earth), and shielding (putting yourself in a large oval bubble of light). Perhaps problems with our relations with members of the World of Spirit indicate that there is a profound shortfall in self-care at our end of the equation on Earth, indicate that we should learn to look after our subtle energy bodies.
PPS Some sources indicate that our guides benefit from encouragement, if they are helping us through spiritual power struggles. So send out supportive thoughts if you could have been more appreciative, if you think that your spiritual guides may have been working to serve your well-being in conflict with darkened souls. An anecdote: once I felt overwhelmed by a group of hostile spirits, and I actually heard one call out the name of an "ascended master", as if to warn the others that he was approaching and they should leave. The name, that I recognised,was "Ranbir", the first name of the soul also called El Morya.
My main point in writing this PPS, which is a point related to appreciation, is to take stock of what good health I do have. From a metaphysical point of view, this is recommended, - such calmness prevents misfortune from running wild and out of control. It's good to be grateful, good in a number of ways - it's respectful and metaphysically, (in terms of thought creativity) it brings good luck. I do well to remember that there are "seven shades" of ... trouble, and I'm only deeply into a few of those shades. It could be a lot worse in terms of exposure to the attentions of darkened souls; I get serious ill will directed at me, and mental harassment/essential irritation, but the quality of it could be more sinister, and such misfortune only extends to my experience of the mental plane, not my physical outer experience at all. The misfortune is limited and could be worse.
So: consider the good of appreciating and being grateful. Guess at the help you are receiving from the Light in being peaceful and happy (a condition of living that you have no doubt been wishing for), and acknowledge it.
The first time I got into visualising, I felt someone jump into my awareness blocking it, someone who I knew when I first got ill. The sense at the time was that they were preventing themselves from being injured in some way.
Three days ago I was attempting to 'put on my astral clothes'- I was shielding myself - and one of the Earthbound discarnate people around me [i.e., one of the "ghosts" around me] forcefully obstructed the visualisation.
So I can feel blocked in my visualising. - It may be to do with being bonded or attached to others energetically, so that to serve myself in this way starves another. Or as, I sensed the other day, it could be from fear of being cut off and starving for vitality. Obviously if you have attracted Earthbound spirit people, who I'm told are very light in their energy, then they, being at present attached to you, will oppose you making your own energy grounded and healthy (that is, denser or stronger).
It may be then, that if you are just starting to redefine and reclaim your energetic territory, you will come across attachments from others who are effectively using some of your vitality that you have been ignoring.
Esoteric spiritual teachings on subtle energy inform us that it is possible to be bonded to others energetically; these bonds, or 'cords' come through fear and can be conduits of energy. Perhaps the first person I noticed blocking my attempts to work on my aura, written about at the beginning of this post, had previously noticed that I had been drawing on his energy, and attempted to stop what he saw as one act of 'vampirisim' too many. It sounds far-fetched that I would have a waking interaction with the distant mind of someone else living, but there it is.
Also, it is well known that spirit presence can cause fatigue, from earthbound spirits actively taking away a person's own allotted subtle energy that they gain from the Earth. Some people use terms to describe the situation such as saying that the person around whom the spirits are gathered is a 'host', a word borrowed from the terminology of parasitism, as if the ghosts are etheric parasites.
Earthbound spirits are likely very fearful, being held in place by fear, by attachment to the things of Earth when they should or could transcend everything and reunite with Divine Light; when they loosen attachment to everything of Earth,. in order to become closer to the Light, they necessarily must let go of the energy of whoever they are around. So, if you can encourage a spirit to let go of your energy, you are also encouraging them to be closer to God and their rightful place in the universe. David Furlong, an experienced spirit worker, attests that wherever there are Earthbound spirits, they are causing an energetic imbalance. That is, they are upsetting the natural order of the flow of Earth energies for people, places or animals. They are causing the energy for the people or places where they are to be unhealthy, - some say risking illness or fatal illness for the people they are attached to.
Perhaps we must fight to be fed, like the smallest animal in a litter. We are alive and we have the right to vitality. We equally have the right to our own 'space'. We have the right to privacy and not to share company with others unwillingly. If you are trying to strengthen your aura, and someone else has their foot in your door, a foot in your space, then get them out. This is an exploration of power, an exploration of personal power. Allow yourself to expand into your space and use the amount of space you are naturally heir to.
I have been successfully imagining a large amount of fire burning in front of me, which I hold in my hands (in my mind's eye). I have been successfully imagining standing as if in half a sphere of clear crystal permeated with bright red glowing light, and having another corresponding more oval shape of clear crystal above me filled with bright fiery golden light. This has helped me feel strong. The red light connects to the Earth (grounding), the golden light connects to the Sun (vitalising).
I have felt strongly opposed in my shielding: I have felt a LOT of resistance in attempting to imagine myself surrounded by shielding light. But with practise, something has to give way - and anyway the light will accumulate around me (it is supposed to accumulate with repeated visualisation).
Obviously the resistance raises the point that my well-being and that of the Earthbound spirit people around me is in conflict; but I have been told recently (by the healer I saw) that I should be forceful and commanding, to own my space. From the encounters I have had with this opposing will, I feel that the ghosts' attempts to stop me are unnecessary.
I also feel it is possible that there is some blocking occurring from more distant spirits, the darkened souls with whom I am familiar, but out of malice not need.
Just as there is an opposing force to my general well-being and auric health, so I also feel that there is a "foot in the door" keeping my psychic senses open, effectively keeping my mental awareness 'public'. I have just been reading about the 'Gatekeeper' spirit guide who is endowed with the task of monitoring and restricting our psychic awareness; unfortunately, according to the author whose book I have been reading, we can lose our Gatekeeper sometimes through profound stress and sudden psychic opening -that definitely seems like the truth to me. I have been recently praying to come back into contact with a Gatekeeper guide. [Perhaps they need me to continue with my aura work and assertiveness before they can come back into power in my life.]
I just put the words
I guess, from a cursory glance, that any meditation work that helps you connect with your spirit guides in Heaven will bring you closer to your Gatekeeper, because they are the same. A professional medium, for example has a strong connection with their guides; I don't, I have had one totally clear vision of one of my guides, probably my chief celestial human helper, - but that's all, we could be a lot closer. Guess closeness with guides is something I can explore and is a possibility open to me further along my path.
But, until I come into formal contact with my Gatekeeper, I can pray, be assertive/forceful and persevere in maintaining my auric health.
So if you have similar problems of enforced openness and an imbalance of giving energy to others,
- Pray for your Gatekeeper to act on your behalf - it's their job to monitor your psychicness
- Be assertive
- Persevere with beneficial visualisations.
PS Just spent some time reading about "the gatekeeper". Some people say your guide and your gatekeeper are the same person; - however opinion seems to differ on this.
Again, I have been reading that guides can't always magically sort out every single issue of spiritual safety; there is an element of luck, I suppose and, as I have just read, an element of self-responsibility: as you grow in awareness, it's time to start looking after your subtle energy body with auric hygiene (washing through the aura with Light), grounding (e.g. imagining being deeply rooted into the Earth), and shielding (putting yourself in a large oval bubble of light). Perhaps problems with our relations with members of the World of Spirit indicate that there is a profound shortfall in self-care at our end of the equation on Earth, indicate that we should learn to look after our subtle energy bodies.
PPS Some sources indicate that our guides benefit from encouragement, if they are helping us through spiritual power struggles. So send out supportive thoughts if you could have been more appreciative, if you think that your spiritual guides may have been working to serve your well-being in conflict with darkened souls. An anecdote: once I felt overwhelmed by a group of hostile spirits, and I actually heard one call out the name of an "ascended master", as if to warn the others that he was approaching and they should leave. The name, that I recognised,was "Ranbir", the first name of the soul also called El Morya.
My main point in writing this PPS, which is a point related to appreciation, is to take stock of what good health I do have. From a metaphysical point of view, this is recommended, - such calmness prevents misfortune from running wild and out of control. It's good to be grateful, good in a number of ways - it's respectful and metaphysically, (in terms of thought creativity) it brings good luck. I do well to remember that there are "seven shades" of ... trouble, and I'm only deeply into a few of those shades. It could be a lot worse in terms of exposure to the attentions of darkened souls; I get serious ill will directed at me, and mental harassment/essential irritation, but the quality of it could be more sinister, and such misfortune only extends to my experience of the mental plane, not my physical outer experience at all. The misfortune is limited and could be worse.
So: consider the good of appreciating and being grateful. Guess at the help you are receiving from the Light in being peaceful and happy (a condition of living that you have no doubt been wishing for), and acknowledge it.
Sunday, 5 December 2010
Madness: How Do You React?
My world-view is very spiritual. I am a very spiritual person in my thinking, and I feel close to God. I have a firm belief in the persistence of Life after physical expiration (I believe there is a Heaven). I have had numerous experiences of Divinity and perceptions of Divine power, so my belief in God is also strong. I have certain experiences I label as paranormal, within a spiritual framework. But what if you call all this madness? What if, for you, there is no 'sixth sense'?
Being on the receiving end of such pronouncements, I can tell you that the response to my beliefs that discredits them as madness and irrational creates division, and seems to be a breeding ground for disrespect. My question here is this: is there a way of disagreeing with someone, of being skeptical of what they say, that does not create a division or disrespect that person? With madness, there is an accentuating of the personal difference that exists between us all; the mad person is not just unique, but different in mentality, and in a way that requires more effort than usual to be harmonious with them.
In the UK, a long time ago, it used to be that people deemed insane were not allowed to vote - they were a kind of lesser person. It was the same for women and criminals too! That's just a point about how we see the insane, and where we have come from.
It used to be that what I believed made no sense, and now, even though I can display a clear system of belief, and quote authorities, I feel some near to me are more than skeptical of what I say. There's a distance there, presumably in the fear of madness (which itself can be seen to be rooted in the fear of the incomprehensible violence that psychotically deluded people sometimes commit).
There's something strange in being told that what you are thinking is wrong. It can be a confrontational moment, and a moment of discomfort or exclusion.
It must be that nurses in psychiatric wards are adept in responding to delusional beliefs, responding not just with compassion, but with humour, and with care. I think this is ideal. If you think I'm mad, please hold the thought gently - because I'd rather not be distanced by that.
There must be a better way of disagreeing with someone and telling them that they are seeing things fundamentally wrongly, than by making them feel stupid or strange - without degrading them.
Everyone has different ways of responding to difference, whether rigid or flexible. Are you a tolerant person? How do you respond to human diversity? Are you open-minded? Can you engage with me emotionally and be gentle when you state that I am misled in my thinking? Or do you have no time for people who are ill, do you effectively disrespect the insane as 'lesser people'?
My world-view, concerning my health, begins with an invitation to believe in the spiritual, and continues into a description of the paranormal; the consideration of the reality of an extra-sensory, spiritual dimension to Life is important in meeting me intellectually. Spirituality, it seems to me, is very much a cultural issue, - it is not a dimension of experience readily believed in my part of the world culture... Where are the spiritual psychiatrists I can discuss my condition with? The condition goes like this:
In the mean time, I repeat, if you think my perceptions are false, and my beliefs are erroneous, please hold that thought gently, because I am, after all, still your dignified human brother.
Being on the receiving end of such pronouncements, I can tell you that the response to my beliefs that discredits them as madness and irrational creates division, and seems to be a breeding ground for disrespect. My question here is this: is there a way of disagreeing with someone, of being skeptical of what they say, that does not create a division or disrespect that person? With madness, there is an accentuating of the personal difference that exists between us all; the mad person is not just unique, but different in mentality, and in a way that requires more effort than usual to be harmonious with them.
In the UK, a long time ago, it used to be that people deemed insane were not allowed to vote - they were a kind of lesser person. It was the same for women and criminals too! That's just a point about how we see the insane, and where we have come from.
It used to be that what I believed made no sense, and now, even though I can display a clear system of belief, and quote authorities, I feel some near to me are more than skeptical of what I say. There's a distance there, presumably in the fear of madness (which itself can be seen to be rooted in the fear of the incomprehensible violence that psychotically deluded people sometimes commit).
There's something strange in being told that what you are thinking is wrong. It can be a confrontational moment, and a moment of discomfort or exclusion.
It must be that nurses in psychiatric wards are adept in responding to delusional beliefs, responding not just with compassion, but with humour, and with care. I think this is ideal. If you think I'm mad, please hold the thought gently - because I'd rather not be distanced by that.
There must be a better way of disagreeing with someone and telling them that they are seeing things fundamentally wrongly, than by making them feel stupid or strange - without degrading them.
Everyone has different ways of responding to difference, whether rigid or flexible. Are you a tolerant person? How do you respond to human diversity? Are you open-minded? Can you engage with me emotionally and be gentle when you state that I am misled in my thinking? Or do you have no time for people who are ill, do you effectively disrespect the insane as 'lesser people'?
_______
My world-view, concerning my health, begins with an invitation to believe in the spiritual, and continues into a description of the paranormal; the consideration of the reality of an extra-sensory, spiritual dimension to Life is important in meeting me intellectually. Spirituality, it seems to me, is very much a cultural issue, - it is not a dimension of experience readily believed in my part of the world culture... Where are the spiritual psychiatrists I can discuss my condition with? The condition goes like this:
- Life on Earth
- God
- soul
- Afterlife
- Heaven
- 'Unascended' people in spirit
- Harmful mental interactions with unascended people in spirit
In the mean time, I repeat, if you think my perceptions are false, and my beliefs are erroneous, please hold that thought gently, because I am, after all, still your dignified human brother.
"Dream-Sharing" And Other Extra-Sensory Perceptions On The Borders Of Waking Consciousness
Those of you who grew up in the eighties in America or Europe may be (dimly) familiar with the concept of Dream-sharing, from a TV programme. The "Fraggles" could share dreams if they fell asleep with their heads touching!
I have had experience vaguely like this - and doubtless you will have done too.
I very often have visions when I close my eyes, ever since I apparently blew my psychic senses open with cannabis! A lot of my psychic perceptions related to dream-sharing are through visions.
One night, staying with my brother, during a hard time of his life, I 'saw', during the night a brief vision of him walking the road to the place of execution that Jesus Christ walked: he was carrying a cross and obviously oppressed by heavy feelings. This vision symbolised his state of mind, and showed that while unconscious he had found refuge in the meaning of that journey to martyrdom, and was borrowing strength from Jesus in reliving that archetypal role.
That was an unusual occurrence for me. I had that vision, it cohered with the situation my brother was in, and I fit it within my experience as described, to mean that I had known his dream.
Spiritual teaching indicates that very often the spirit roams around once the body is asleep, usually navigating the astral planes.
There are supposedly many dimensions of experience, I read they number thirty in total, and Life as we know it is different in each dimension.
I have had visions of strange lifeforms, but with human personalities known to me 'attached' to them; - bear with me!! On the higher dimensions, it seems from these visions, as we float away towards God and increase in our power, we can create and evolve ourselves into anything, and my theory is that we do this to protect ourselves from psychological or spiritual threats, whether that be the astral form of the person who is your rival, or any manner of supposed threat. Presumably someone with a more disciplined and peaceful mind might merely experience Divine peace whilst in these higher dimensions.
This all sounds far-fetched, but it is quite certain to me, without a shadow of irrationality falling across it. These strange evolutions that I have seen on a few occasions indicate our great power as creative and evolutionary beings - in that light, these claims seem gloriously reasonable.
I have never read about such a reality of shape-shifting, these statements are purely based on first hand experience. Who knows the subconscious mind? Why not dream of being another life form?
Are you still reading?? I hope you are.
So if we 'move about' in spirit during our dreams, then we can meet up, and some of our dreams about other people must be real interactions. I remember reading about a certain person, and soon after I met them whilst dreaming and shook their hand. That person is now a spiritual friend of mine and is near me everyday as a friend and helper.
Doreen Virtue, the "angel lady" writes about how during dreamtime, very often our souls travel to Heaven for education, for life lessons; - I have had such dreams, whether they be art lessons, or discussions with peers about vegetarianism. Doreen also says that we can travel and interact with others to help them, giving our dreamtime to helping others through our wisdom and caring.
My favourite moments of 'dream-sharing' are those when I am awake, just slipped out of sleep, and I hear the voice of someone I know, whether mother, brother or friend, and they talk to me. It is clear that they are dreaming (somehow it's obvious, whether from the innocence in their voices or the loose, dreamy rationality of their speech). You realise that someone is paying attention to you on the dream plane. You get a sense of the deeper nature of that person, the goodness of their heart or their purity. Clearly these are occasions when I and another have been communing together on the dream planes, and then I wake up and through my own psychic gifts I am able to be aware of them still. However, I would not say that those others would be able to testify to the connection, since they normally sound as though they are asleep.
Once, falling asleep I had a vision of my mother as a child. This was after bed-time, so I believe she had fallen asleep - and slipped straight into the consciousness of her inner child, as a psychological safety mechanism, as an indication of where she is happiest, - or was happiest on that night. This was a profound moment, and gave insight into her psyche that cohered with how she expresses herself when she is awake.
Well, I don't know if you can 'buy' all that, but it comes from real psychic experience, and all of it goes to prove that truth is stranger than fiction, that "there are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy." - That's not meant here as an insult, but as an invitation to open the mind. I emphasise again how all this comes from a calm and sober mentality! I know I'm not at fault in my thinking about these perceptions, and ask you to consider them real.
These perceptions make sense within a very grand reality of interconnectedness and power, and within a spiritual aspect of reality about which most may be unknowing.
I hope you have enjoyed these sharings on dream-sharing!
Mr S
I have had experience vaguely like this - and doubtless you will have done too.
I very often have visions when I close my eyes, ever since I apparently blew my psychic senses open with cannabis! A lot of my psychic perceptions related to dream-sharing are through visions.
One night, staying with my brother, during a hard time of his life, I 'saw', during the night a brief vision of him walking the road to the place of execution that Jesus Christ walked: he was carrying a cross and obviously oppressed by heavy feelings. This vision symbolised his state of mind, and showed that while unconscious he had found refuge in the meaning of that journey to martyrdom, and was borrowing strength from Jesus in reliving that archetypal role.
That was an unusual occurrence for me. I had that vision, it cohered with the situation my brother was in, and I fit it within my experience as described, to mean that I had known his dream.
Spiritual teaching indicates that very often the spirit roams around once the body is asleep, usually navigating the astral planes.
There are supposedly many dimensions of experience, I read they number thirty in total, and Life as we know it is different in each dimension.
I have had visions of strange lifeforms, but with human personalities known to me 'attached' to them; - bear with me!! On the higher dimensions, it seems from these visions, as we float away towards God and increase in our power, we can create and evolve ourselves into anything, and my theory is that we do this to protect ourselves from psychological or spiritual threats, whether that be the astral form of the person who is your rival, or any manner of supposed threat. Presumably someone with a more disciplined and peaceful mind might merely experience Divine peace whilst in these higher dimensions.
This all sounds far-fetched, but it is quite certain to me, without a shadow of irrationality falling across it. These strange evolutions that I have seen on a few occasions indicate our great power as creative and evolutionary beings - in that light, these claims seem gloriously reasonable.
I have never read about such a reality of shape-shifting, these statements are purely based on first hand experience. Who knows the subconscious mind? Why not dream of being another life form?
Are you still reading?? I hope you are.
So if we 'move about' in spirit during our dreams, then we can meet up, and some of our dreams about other people must be real interactions. I remember reading about a certain person, and soon after I met them whilst dreaming and shook their hand. That person is now a spiritual friend of mine and is near me everyday as a friend and helper.
Doreen Virtue, the "angel lady" writes about how during dreamtime, very often our souls travel to Heaven for education, for life lessons; - I have had such dreams, whether they be art lessons, or discussions with peers about vegetarianism. Doreen also says that we can travel and interact with others to help them, giving our dreamtime to helping others through our wisdom and caring.
My favourite moments of 'dream-sharing' are those when I am awake, just slipped out of sleep, and I hear the voice of someone I know, whether mother, brother or friend, and they talk to me. It is clear that they are dreaming (somehow it's obvious, whether from the innocence in their voices or the loose, dreamy rationality of their speech). You realise that someone is paying attention to you on the dream plane. You get a sense of the deeper nature of that person, the goodness of their heart or their purity. Clearly these are occasions when I and another have been communing together on the dream planes, and then I wake up and through my own psychic gifts I am able to be aware of them still. However, I would not say that those others would be able to testify to the connection, since they normally sound as though they are asleep.
Once, falling asleep I had a vision of my mother as a child. This was after bed-time, so I believe she had fallen asleep - and slipped straight into the consciousness of her inner child, as a psychological safety mechanism, as an indication of where she is happiest, - or was happiest on that night. This was a profound moment, and gave insight into her psyche that cohered with how she expresses herself when she is awake.
Well, I don't know if you can 'buy' all that, but it comes from real psychic experience, and all of it goes to prove that truth is stranger than fiction, that "there are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy." - That's not meant here as an insult, but as an invitation to open the mind. I emphasise again how all this comes from a calm and sober mentality! I know I'm not at fault in my thinking about these perceptions, and ask you to consider them real.
These perceptions make sense within a very grand reality of interconnectedness and power, and within a spiritual aspect of reality about which most may be unknowing.
I hope you have enjoyed these sharings on dream-sharing!
Mr S
Waking Up In The World: Spiritual Beginnings
I have read in various places that steps taken to safeguard our well-being through spiritual techniques are the equivalent of wearing clothes to protect ourselves from the elements.
Once you are aware of the World of Spirit, you find yourself reborn again, and naked again as a newborn baby - and should put on your 'clothes' for your own good.
This is all as simple as imagining bright light around you, which has a natural shielding capability. Less energetic 'pollution' for your organism, less affected by others' harmful emotions, less spiritual danger.
In the last few days, I have been reading "Working With Earth Energies" by David Furlong. This seems to be a good book, based on the authority of thirty years' experience with the World of Spirit as someone with gifted awareness. I bought this book for its promise of relating to the Earth, and feeling connected within its energies; however, Mr Furlong provides methods for grounding ("Earth attunement", he calls it), and for shielding, - and he also describes a method for allowing Earthbound spirits to transition to the Light, to go Home to 'Heaven'. This is a book I recommend. I can't write his techniques here, because I don't wish to infringe copyright. He was one person who says that spiritual self-care (maintenace of the aura) is like wearing clothes; another person to have written that same idea is Derek Acorah.
Once you are aware of the World of Spirit, you find yourself reborn again, and naked again as a newborn baby - and should put on your 'clothes' for your own good.
This is all as simple as imagining bright light around you, which has a natural shielding capability. Less energetic 'pollution' for your organism, less affected by others' harmful emotions, less spiritual danger.
In the last few days, I have been reading "Working With Earth Energies" by David Furlong. This seems to be a good book, based on the authority of thirty years' experience with the World of Spirit as someone with gifted awareness. I bought this book for its promise of relating to the Earth, and feeling connected within its energies; however, Mr Furlong provides methods for grounding ("Earth attunement", he calls it), and for shielding, - and he also describes a method for allowing Earthbound spirits to transition to the Light, to go Home to 'Heaven'. This is a book I recommend. I can't write his techniques here, because I don't wish to infringe copyright. He was one person who says that spiritual self-care (maintenace of the aura) is like wearing clothes; another person to have written that same idea is Derek Acorah.
Friday, 3 December 2010
Question On My Condition: Am I Still Schizophrenic?
When I was telling my story to the healer two days ago, an interesting point was raised. Although I was attempting to say that my schizophrenic symptoms had gone away, I still had that second full breakdown two years ago. Unfortunately, my memories of it now are fading. This is what I think happened.
The point is, that retelling my story, I had missed out the first step listed above. My version of the story in my mind had always been that I had a breakdown from stress, then stopped taking my medicine by happenstance, felt fine, stayed off it, and got ill without realising. But why was I already showing signs of being ill? I remember feeling kind of light-headed, like a type of mania - why was that happening? I was going through a lot of stress, to do with work; somehow this must have broken through the capability of the medicine I was on - yet I also feel that the medicine was ceasing to work for me, like a kind of toxic reaction? I don't know. Why did I start to get 'unhinged' a few months before I collapsed from mental exhaustion?
Although I have been otherwise stable and without symptoms except for apparent paranormal sensitivity and mental disturbance, it seems I am still susceptible to full schizophrenic symptoms, given sufficient stress. That complicates matters. Rather than being someone who has come through schizophrenia, I am someone who will always be at risk of a schizophrenic breakdown.
PS This is a big deal for me, that I apparently could be subject to further breakdowns. I had looked on the second break I have had as a freak occurrence, forgetting that I was already "going off the rails" a little... I need to think about this, and analyse it to find the truth of it. It's unsettling to realise that I was wrong and am potentially still in danger of further illness, and should remain on medication (contrary to my preferences). It may be that I can live a normal life without medicine, but will always be in danger of another breakdown from stress - but that's true on medicine or off it, stress is a universal danger for people who have schizophrenia.
Thanks for reading.
- I remember thinking two months in advance that I had a special connection with someone and was 'channeling' information. I think a lot of that was 'woolly', now.
- On the day the breakdown started, I went to the bank and had a personal meeting with a manager, during which I laughed and laughed and laughed, for no apparent reason; I was just undergoing some kind of hysteria. I then went home and collapsed, more or less, lying on the floor in my living room, before going to bed.
- I stayed in bed for about two weeks, during which time I stopped taking my medicine; since I felt very well., I was happy and thought I didn't need my medicine. However I soon started to have perceptual disturbances (thinking my body very small/large), and hallucinating, thinking an apocalypse was going on outside.
- I then turned into the full breakdown, frightening fears and hallucinations and delusions.
The point is, that retelling my story, I had missed out the first step listed above. My version of the story in my mind had always been that I had a breakdown from stress, then stopped taking my medicine by happenstance, felt fine, stayed off it, and got ill without realising. But why was I already showing signs of being ill? I remember feeling kind of light-headed, like a type of mania - why was that happening? I was going through a lot of stress, to do with work; somehow this must have broken through the capability of the medicine I was on - yet I also feel that the medicine was ceasing to work for me, like a kind of toxic reaction? I don't know. Why did I start to get 'unhinged' a few months before I collapsed from mental exhaustion?
Although I have been otherwise stable and without symptoms except for apparent paranormal sensitivity and mental disturbance, it seems I am still susceptible to full schizophrenic symptoms, given sufficient stress. That complicates matters. Rather than being someone who has come through schizophrenia, I am someone who will always be at risk of a schizophrenic breakdown.
PS This is a big deal for me, that I apparently could be subject to further breakdowns. I had looked on the second break I have had as a freak occurrence, forgetting that I was already "going off the rails" a little... I need to think about this, and analyse it to find the truth of it. It's unsettling to realise that I was wrong and am potentially still in danger of further illness, and should remain on medication (contrary to my preferences). It may be that I can live a normal life without medicine, but will always be in danger of another breakdown from stress - but that's true on medicine or off it, stress is a universal danger for people who have schizophrenia.
Thanks for reading.
Short Post On Lifestyle When Suffering Mental Ill Health
Just like you would think that someone 'cast away' on a desert island might go mad from loneliness and despair, if they weren't careful, you should expect that someone who could be much more active outside the home and interact more with others socially may become depressed, may sit at home and start wondering about the meaning of life in a very despairing way.
Solitude and inactivity may likely breed depression - that's something to remember. Open up windows on the world.
PS: Afterthought: the solitude and low level of interaction with the world, being at home all the time, may mean you are starved of meaningful activity and suffer through a low level of variety in your life - and you may not exactly notice the cause, either. "Variety is the spice of Life," they say, and that rings true.
This is a post drawing insight from my own life, because my social circle is small and not local to me, and I am officially unemployed... It's a little dangerous- you end up wondering what to do with yourself, getting bored, not having any ideas of what to do, feeling lonely, even feeling unworthy of connection with others.
It's better to be conscious of the emotional risks of this lifestyle.
Solitude and inactivity may likely breed depression - that's something to remember. Open up windows on the world.
PS: Afterthought: the solitude and low level of interaction with the world, being at home all the time, may mean you are starved of meaningful activity and suffer through a low level of variety in your life - and you may not exactly notice the cause, either. "Variety is the spice of Life," they say, and that rings true.
This is a post drawing insight from my own life, because my social circle is small and not local to me, and I am officially unemployed... It's a little dangerous- you end up wondering what to do with yourself, getting bored, not having any ideas of what to do, feeling lonely, even feeling unworthy of connection with others.
It's better to be conscious of the emotional risks of this lifestyle.
Report On Trip To See A Shamanic Healing Practitioner
On Wednesday 01 December I made my way across many a snowy mile of British landscape, boarding three trains and a bus, and finally, after some delays, found the home of the healer who was to help me.
A lot of time was spent talking and identifying causes of stress and obstructing beliefs, which she helped me with using various psychological techniques. This revealed a boundary problem with someone I knew, who I sometimes meet in dreams, who I have to tell to respect my space, and this relationship still causes me discomfort at the thought of it, though it ended more than a decade ago; - she later checked for etheric attachments with this person.
As I tried to explain the 'symptoms' of my condition, I could feel that she was skeptical of my account, at first not understanding what I meant by "a force coming from above and compelling my thoughts into painful avenues"! I could feel that she was incredulous of it, but as time went on, she seemed to give credence to the situation. She said I had a nice energy, and that I was oviously being helped by some good spirits (from what I told her).
Passing her hand over my aura to look for problems, I felt her hand's energy interactting with mine in a 'tingling' way, and when I told her this, the healer said that I must be super-sensitive to energies.
She cleared a large blockage she sensed to be 'above' me (in my aura, I presume - I wondered if this was from being unhappy with my spiritual sensitivity). She used a special burning wood to clear the aura.
The lady works with old Incan spiritual medicine, and during the healing, I had visions of Incan-type people looking at me, who wore large vertical crowns, as if they were spiritual royalty coming to supervise the healing. I also saw the head of a piece of wheat very clearly, which I hope was there as a sign of health. During a moment when I was told to project pain outisde of me onto a special stone that she would later 'clear' of pain, I saw two faces of suffering spirits, who were again Incan in genealogy - their energy was very 'heavy'.
I was still getting signs of spirit presence whilst in her house, and still getting painful tuggings at my thoughts during the shamanic healing part of the session. I said to her at the end, "Is there an instant fix?" and she said, "This work I do is the best instant fix that I have found". My point was that she hadn't released the spirits around me or banished the negativity from my awareness where I have been interacting negatively with the World of Spirit.
However, she said that certain practices weaken the aura by thinning it out, such as drinking alcohol or taking drugs. She gave me four important pieces of advice:
I know that the healing and conversation helped me. The talking therapy helped me be stronger, and the shamanic healing was comforting, as she sang songs to the spirits for help. Lying in bed today, I was happy when I sensed a strong and kind Incan spirit come near to pay attention to me.
I am determined to ground regularly now. I can find visualising difficult, but I will do this. I have begun imagining standing on a large white flower (a chrysanthemum), with a red, grounding glow inside it. I have also imagined my feet wrapped in a red light, like the colour of the lava deep within the Earth. It may take me some time to build up to more advanced visualisations, but I feel like what I am doing now is useful.
Yesterday was a good experience. The person who looked after me was sharply clever, well-trained, funny and strong; I was impressed by her sensitivity and connection with Spirit.
So I must become stronger, more commanding, more self-disciplined, and make efforts to preserve my health. In a few days I will receive some new books on spiritual self-care that I ordered online. It's time to gain some expertise.
A lot of time was spent talking and identifying causes of stress and obstructing beliefs, which she helped me with using various psychological techniques. This revealed a boundary problem with someone I knew, who I sometimes meet in dreams, who I have to tell to respect my space, and this relationship still causes me discomfort at the thought of it, though it ended more than a decade ago; - she later checked for etheric attachments with this person.
As I tried to explain the 'symptoms' of my condition, I could feel that she was skeptical of my account, at first not understanding what I meant by "a force coming from above and compelling my thoughts into painful avenues"! I could feel that she was incredulous of it, but as time went on, she seemed to give credence to the situation. She said I had a nice energy, and that I was oviously being helped by some good spirits (from what I told her).
Passing her hand over my aura to look for problems, I felt her hand's energy interactting with mine in a 'tingling' way, and when I told her this, the healer said that I must be super-sensitive to energies.
She cleared a large blockage she sensed to be 'above' me (in my aura, I presume - I wondered if this was from being unhappy with my spiritual sensitivity). She used a special burning wood to clear the aura.
The lady works with old Incan spiritual medicine, and during the healing, I had visions of Incan-type people looking at me, who wore large vertical crowns, as if they were spiritual royalty coming to supervise the healing. I also saw the head of a piece of wheat very clearly, which I hope was there as a sign of health. During a moment when I was told to project pain outisde of me onto a special stone that she would later 'clear' of pain, I saw two faces of suffering spirits, who were again Incan in genealogy - their energy was very 'heavy'.
I was still getting signs of spirit presence whilst in her house, and still getting painful tuggings at my thoughts during the shamanic healing part of the session. I said to her at the end, "Is there an instant fix?" and she said, "This work I do is the best instant fix that I have found". My point was that she hadn't released the spirits around me or banished the negativity from my awareness where I have been interacting negatively with the World of Spirit.
However, she said that certain practices weaken the aura by thinning it out, such as drinking alcohol or taking drugs. She gave me four important pieces of advice:
- Take care of the aura by avoiding alcohol and drugs, which through making the aura thin and more ethereal, make a person more attractive to wandering spirits.
- Ground: connect to the Earth through imagination and visualisation every day. This helps the aura be strong.
- Keep a sense of humour and not feel drained immediately every time there is an unwelcome psychic interaction.
- Be commanding and assertive. We identified that the problems I was having (uninvited spirits in my living space and mental intrusions) were essentially boundary issues to do with personal power on an energetic level. I realised that I don't like being commanding. She recommended that I pray something like the following the prayer: "O God, it is commanded that I have personal space...", so that the command is in the "third person" and cannot be argued with by my mind.
I know that the healing and conversation helped me. The talking therapy helped me be stronger, and the shamanic healing was comforting, as she sang songs to the spirits for help. Lying in bed today, I was happy when I sensed a strong and kind Incan spirit come near to pay attention to me.
I am determined to ground regularly now. I can find visualising difficult, but I will do this. I have begun imagining standing on a large white flower (a chrysanthemum), with a red, grounding glow inside it. I have also imagined my feet wrapped in a red light, like the colour of the lava deep within the Earth. It may take me some time to build up to more advanced visualisations, but I feel like what I am doing now is useful.
Yesterday was a good experience. The person who looked after me was sharply clever, well-trained, funny and strong; I was impressed by her sensitivity and connection with Spirit.
So I must become stronger, more commanding, more self-disciplined, and make efforts to preserve my health. In a few days I will receive some new books on spiritual self-care that I ordered online. It's time to gain some expertise.
Tuesday, 30 November 2010
Spiritual Attack
I would like to hear from anyone who experiences disharmonious relations with the World of Spirit, especially those who have no other mental health issues. Please share with me (and the other readers of this blog) a few words in the comment section at the bottom of this post.
Sunday, 28 November 2010
Psychicness Good, Psychicness Bad
How much psychicness is good for you?
My opinion:
And of course, modified openness is preferable - ie you are open when you wish to be and closed when you wish to be, not exposed to the pollution and hostility that could enter your awareness psychically when open all the time. (Equally, I'd say many people know nothing of spiritual techniques of psychic self-care, and suffer because of it, whether it be nightmares, taking on others emotions towards them or constantly feeling subconscious anger about unresolved conflicts that physically passed long before).
My opinion:
- In the average person, only a little psychicness is necessary.
- for intuition - the helpful 'gut feeling' or immediate impression of a situation;
- for insights and ideas that come from the Greater Universal Consciousness;
- sensing energies that help us form opinions about situations and be safe.
And of course, modified openness is preferable - ie you are open when you wish to be and closed when you wish to be, not exposed to the pollution and hostility that could enter your awareness psychically when open all the time. (Equally, I'd say many people know nothing of spiritual techniques of psychic self-care, and suffer because of it, whether it be nightmares, taking on others emotions towards them or constantly feeling subconscious anger about unresolved conflicts that physically passed long before).
Don't Stress On It: Metaphysics and Manifestation: Daring Religious Reflections
Don't Stress On It
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Metaphysics and Manifestation:
Imagine that we live in an endless 'soup' of possibilities that respond to our thoughts and feelings. Our thoughts and feelings give us a certain vibration that attracts back to us outside the mind a reality equivalent with the vibration our free minds emit. Experience is changeable and 'plastic'. When we purify our minds and marshal our thoughts, miracles happen.
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Causes
Yesterday I was wondering about the causes of my troubles - where the misfortune came from and why I am the subject of a spirit vendetta.
Then I came to the conclusion that I should not be overly concerned about causes. My mental scenario began before I learned of the spiritual teachings about manifestation, - that is, about personal creativity as an experiencing member of the Divine Body.
There are two principle modes of personal creation: unconscious direction of the manifestation of one's experience, and conscious manifestation of experience. Conscious manifestation requires the right understanding and the application of it through careful cultivation of one's mental self. There is much literature to be found detailing this process.
It requires clarity, passion, persistence and faith to manifest a desired condition purely from thought force. I have not done it yet, but see it as a worthy goal; Neale Donald Walsch's God implies that it is a major goal of life for an individual to know themselves as creative. [In my perspective, I agree, we can be creators; if you are wondering how it is that we have God's power, think about this: God made us, so we are divine because our origin is in God, though God is Divine (capital D, always having greater power and glory).]
My point here is that all the paranormal trouble began before I took care over every thought (a habit which manifests good fortune), so it's not something to worry about, all this is a consequence of normal ignorance, and ignorance of the importance of a mind of love, rather than a mind of fear or resentment.
Love
So many sources say that Life is all about Love.
The New Testament of the followers of Jesus of Nazareth called the Messiah [full title!] says that
"Deus caritas est : et qui manet in caritate, in Deo manet, et Deus in eo;"
...that is: "God is love: and who lives in Love, lives in God, and God lives in them." (Again, the implication is that love is 'Godliness', or 'righteousness').
Likewise, the New Testament says that "Perfect Love casteth out fear."
Neale Donald Walsch's God says Life as we know it is based around two polarities, Love and fear, of which fear is ultimately an illusion that permits Creation to be [Imagine! Fear is just an illusion! The implication of this is that truly, love is all there is and so everything is perfect], and that at the Highest level, all blends into One and there is only Love.
So when I was younger and unknowing and was very afraid or very unloving, I brought to myself a frightening reality and a reality without a strong awareness of love. And that's Okay. I was creating, I just didn't know it. Now I know it in fact, and seek to express in reality that fact, that I am made a creator, in God's image and likeness, sharing in God's power, living in Love, and living in God.
Shamanism: My Clarification
I wish to make the note that shamanism, where I mention it as being a source of help with spirit-originated mental disturbance, is a form of healing through mediation and interaction with the World of Spirit.
I'm not an expert on shamanism. I was spiritually told to seek shamanic help with my situation of painful thought disturbance. As I have encountered it in the UK, shamanism is about healing. However, I know in some parts of the world, shamanism extends into sorcery and psychic warfare between practitioners or individuals in the community.
I guess shamanism, for the spirits in Heaven, is supposed to be a benign thing that does not injure unnecessarily or override personal freedom on any level, a system of practice that heals and teaches and brings happiness, - a system of spiritual medicine of the Light and in service of the Light. That's the shamanism I'm referring to on this blog.
I'm not an expert on shamanism. I was spiritually told to seek shamanic help with my situation of painful thought disturbance. As I have encountered it in the UK, shamanism is about healing. However, I know in some parts of the world, shamanism extends into sorcery and psychic warfare between practitioners or individuals in the community.
I guess shamanism, for the spirits in Heaven, is supposed to be a benign thing that does not injure unnecessarily or override personal freedom on any level, a system of practice that heals and teaches and brings happiness, - a system of spiritual medicine of the Light and in service of the Light. That's the shamanism I'm referring to on this blog.
Uninitiated Use Of Entheogens and Hallucinogens And Mental Health
I just wrote in the previous post about being ignorant of the full effects of cannabis.
Cannabis does more than give you a pleasing mental sensation, it is a portal agent, it activates and opens the spiritual senses, it awakens soul awareness. Fine if you are a shaman; trouble if you are an unknowing teenager.
As the uninitiated user, you have no existing contact with guides and angels - those soul guardians who guide you through danger to well-being, - and also, not to mention the fact that your ego is unprepared for receiving numerous large spiritual gifts in the form of Divine communion, spiritual euphoria, infusion of understanding and other blessings. You know nothing of the quietness and peacefulness with which you must receive the new influx of energy coming to you, - you know nothing of the subsequent dangers of mental derangement that can follow.
I think the most important thing, in terms of a person's safety, drawing conclusions from my own experience is how spiritually orientated you are before you get into deep water (say, from using cannabis intensively)
An analogy: if someone leaves prison with no goals of how to rectify things and make a new life for themselves, they will likely quickly buckle to pressure and fall into criminality again. Similarly, if someone opens the doors of spiritual awareness, perhaps unaware of the fact, and without firm anchoring in contacts and connections in Heaven with the good spirits there, what will happen? - they will be subsumed and broken by the force of the energy that will come in first to them to fill any vacuums, they will walk straight into darkness and an overwhelming amount of psychic pollution.
The ongoing spiritual threats to one's personal health and safety come from not being securely anchored in contact with good spirits before taking in the shamanic 'entheogen' or hallucinogen in sufficient quantities to lead to a large change in awareness.
The threats to one's psychological health might come from being unprepared for spiritualisation and an upsurge of psychic energy when taking in the shamanic 'entheogne' or hallucinogen in sufficient quantities to lead to a large change in awareness.
Also these substances that transform awareness and spiritualise are likely solemnly venerated by those that use them ritually - it probably does not help matters that other cultures such as mine appropriate them and use them at will and without ceremony. This raises questions on the sacred and the profane, on defilement and violation.
I saw a shamanic healer who released a cannabis spirit entity from my aura, that I was holding captive - presumably a part of me formed during dependence on the plant's 'narcotic' effects. The healer told me the plant spirit was very angry with me, and that I was forbidden by it from taking in that narcotic substance ever again.
- We might not annoy spirits in Heaven by irreverent use of cannabis (but maybe we do), but it seems possible that we can annoy and injure the spirit of the plant itself. This serves to demonstrate that everything has consciousness at some level.
I wonder how much the cannabis plant is suffering in these times, due to dependence and use that in fact leads to a darkening of personal qualities through unconscious psychic opening and overshadowing.
As an example the Wikipedia page on Ayahuasca [Mighty Wikipedia! A frequent source of mine], found here, lists plants used in the Ayahuasca mixture, some of which are purposefully used for their protective qualities. For example:
The point is that the medicine men who use entheogens and hallucinogens take their spiritual safety very seriously, and work with powerful good spirits to perpetuate their well-being; they also use the substances solemnly and with reverence.
The use of these drugs requires a certain amount of caution to be safe, such as active relationship with celestial guardians, and management of the aura (grounding, 'shielding', and closing down). However, this is not to say that there wil always be risks. The damage done to a person's aura may be cumulative, as it seemed to be with me - for some years I occasionally used cannabis to the point of strong intoxication without spiritualisation or mental disturbance. The dual reputation of cannabis as variously recreational or reverend in nature, depending on one's culture, also attests to the idea that in reality, the drug is not always damaging to the mind. Similarly, people still find reason to argue over whether cannabis use can cause psychosis (not that I have any reason to argue about that, my experience was obvious).
So, in conclusion, please leave this page with the belief that there is reason to at least be cautious with drug use, and that some degree of intiation into the potential effects of some drugs is very important for those who choose to involve themselves with them.
Cannabis does more than give you a pleasing mental sensation, it is a portal agent, it activates and opens the spiritual senses, it awakens soul awareness. Fine if you are a shaman; trouble if you are an unknowing teenager.
As the uninitiated user, you have no existing contact with guides and angels - those soul guardians who guide you through danger to well-being, - and also, not to mention the fact that your ego is unprepared for receiving numerous large spiritual gifts in the form of Divine communion, spiritual euphoria, infusion of understanding and other blessings. You know nothing of the quietness and peacefulness with which you must receive the new influx of energy coming to you, - you know nothing of the subsequent dangers of mental derangement that can follow.
I think the most important thing, in terms of a person's safety, drawing conclusions from my own experience is how spiritually orientated you are before you get into deep water (say, from using cannabis intensively)
An analogy: if someone leaves prison with no goals of how to rectify things and make a new life for themselves, they will likely quickly buckle to pressure and fall into criminality again. Similarly, if someone opens the doors of spiritual awareness, perhaps unaware of the fact, and without firm anchoring in contacts and connections in Heaven with the good spirits there, what will happen? - they will be subsumed and broken by the force of the energy that will come in first to them to fill any vacuums, they will walk straight into darkness and an overwhelming amount of psychic pollution.
The ongoing spiritual threats to one's personal health and safety come from not being securely anchored in contact with good spirits before taking in the shamanic 'entheogen' or hallucinogen in sufficient quantities to lead to a large change in awareness.
The threats to one's psychological health might come from being unprepared for spiritualisation and an upsurge of psychic energy when taking in the shamanic 'entheogne' or hallucinogen in sufficient quantities to lead to a large change in awareness.
Also these substances that transform awareness and spiritualise are likely solemnly venerated by those that use them ritually - it probably does not help matters that other cultures such as mine appropriate them and use them at will and without ceremony. This raises questions on the sacred and the profane, on defilement and violation.
I saw a shamanic healer who released a cannabis spirit entity from my aura, that I was holding captive - presumably a part of me formed during dependence on the plant's 'narcotic' effects. The healer told me the plant spirit was very angry with me, and that I was forbidden by it from taking in that narcotic substance ever again.
- We might not annoy spirits in Heaven by irreverent use of cannabis (but maybe we do), but it seems possible that we can annoy and injure the spirit of the plant itself. This serves to demonstrate that everything has consciousness at some level.
I wonder how much the cannabis plant is suffering in these times, due to dependence and use that in fact leads to a darkening of personal qualities through unconscious psychic opening and overshadowing.
As an example the Wikipedia page on Ayahuasca [Mighty Wikipedia! A frequent source of mine], found here, lists plants used in the Ayahuasca mixture, some of which are purposefully used for their protective qualities. For example:
- Shiwawaku bark: Brings purple medicine to the ceremony. Provides healing and protection.
- Camu camu Gigante: Head spirit comes in the form of a large dark skinned giant. He provides medicine and protection in the form of warding off dark and demonic spirits.
- Tamamuri: Head spirit looks like an old Asian warrior with a long white wispy beard. He carries a staff and manages thousands of spirits to protect the ceremony and send away energies that are purged from the participants.
- Uchu Sanango: Head of the sanango plants. Provides power, strength, and protection. Head doctor spirit is a grandfather with a long, gray-white beard.
- Huacapurana: Giant tree of the amazon with very hard bark. Its head spirits come in the form of Amazonian giants and provide a strong grounding presence in the ceremony.
The point is that the medicine men who use entheogens and hallucinogens take their spiritual safety very seriously, and work with powerful good spirits to perpetuate their well-being; they also use the substances solemnly and with reverence.
The use of these drugs requires a certain amount of caution to be safe, such as active relationship with celestial guardians, and management of the aura (grounding, 'shielding', and closing down). However, this is not to say that there wil always be risks. The damage done to a person's aura may be cumulative, as it seemed to be with me - for some years I occasionally used cannabis to the point of strong intoxication without spiritualisation or mental disturbance. The dual reputation of cannabis as variously recreational or reverend in nature, depending on one's culture, also attests to the idea that in reality, the drug is not always damaging to the mind. Similarly, people still find reason to argue over whether cannabis use can cause psychosis (not that I have any reason to argue about that, my experience was obvious).
So, in conclusion, please leave this page with the belief that there is reason to at least be cautious with drug use, and that some degree of intiation into the potential effects of some drugs is very important for those who choose to involve themselves with them.
Take Care
I read on the Wikipedia page for Shamanism (found here) that cannabis is used as a shamanic herb (to aid the practitioner in transcendence and spirit contact); it mentions use happens for this purpose in India. This compounded my opinion, and made me think: cannabis, the drug I over-used, - apparently triggering psychosis, and spiritual and psychic awakening, is used by shamans! This again confirmed my opinion that the drug spiritualises. It is not just a 'high', "the hysterical herb" (as it is sometimes known in the Middle East), it bears solemn gifts too. Gifts I was totally unaware of. It's a shamanic herb! It opens you up to the World of Spirit! Not a toy for teenagers, or people who use it dependently.
I suppose that you invite a channel of spiritual energy to open with intensive cannabis use, and for the initiated that energy is unexpected, has nowhere to go, is not integrated, and begins then to contribute to an unsettling of the mind, in fear and paranoia, acting toxically to lead to psychosis.
For me cannabis use for the uninitiated and the young is on the same level as the Ouija board, that spiritualists so often warn people against 'playing' with or using without care and precaution: both Ouija boards and cannabis are very magnetic to spirits, and open a portal to the World of Spirit, resulting in earthbound spirits attaching themselves and inviting disturbance from spirits of 'lower' awareness.
So, I know that cannabis spiritualises, from first hand. Spiritualisation, or spiritual awakening, comes with first hand experiences of Divinity, and with great religious fervour and moral renewal; spiritual awakening apparently also comes with psychic sensitivity, that permits connection and comunication with the Spiritual. I also know that Sadhus (holy men) in India use it to get closer to God. Now I also know that it is used by shamans to assist in their opening up to the World of Spirit - and this just confirms how powerful the herb is. Here I am lamenting my former ignorance of cannabis' solemn properties, source of so much pain and trouble, and am recording my surprise at the fact that cannabis is used as a shamanic aid to transcendence, and the latter fact just confirms why I got into trouble.
I suppose that you invite a channel of spiritual energy to open with intensive cannabis use, and for the initiated that energy is unexpected, has nowhere to go, is not integrated, and begins then to contribute to an unsettling of the mind, in fear and paranoia, acting toxically to lead to psychosis.
For me cannabis use for the uninitiated and the young is on the same level as the Ouija board, that spiritualists so often warn people against 'playing' with or using without care and precaution: both Ouija boards and cannabis are very magnetic to spirits, and open a portal to the World of Spirit, resulting in earthbound spirits attaching themselves and inviting disturbance from spirits of 'lower' awareness.
So, I know that cannabis spiritualises, from first hand. Spiritualisation, or spiritual awakening, comes with first hand experiences of Divinity, and with great religious fervour and moral renewal; spiritual awakening apparently also comes with psychic sensitivity, that permits connection and comunication with the Spiritual. I also know that Sadhus (holy men) in India use it to get closer to God. Now I also know that it is used by shamans to assist in their opening up to the World of Spirit - and this just confirms how powerful the herb is. Here I am lamenting my former ignorance of cannabis' solemn properties, source of so much pain and trouble, and am recording my surprise at the fact that cannabis is used as a shamanic aid to transcendence, and the latter fact just confirms why I got into trouble.
Near Death Experience Insights
There is a great website called www.Near-Death.com, where you can find compiled accounts of the afterlife experienced by certain people who have been clinically dead, left the body and gone to Heaven (or elsewhere) and then come back to their bodies and back to life on Earth, and told others about what they learned.
Reading this website I gained great comfort in my thinking about God and the afterlife and how God feels towards every one of us. People tend to come back with a message of comfort and love and joy.
PS Reading through the section "How To Escape From The Earthbound Realm", in the interest of helping earthbound spirits, on the webpage entitled "The NDE and Hell" (found here), I came across this statement by Near Death experiencer Dr George Ritchie:
"The living have auras of light surrounding their bodies. If the aura becomes distorted through alcohol or drugs, an earthbound soul can temporarily possess the body."
- This reminded me of my own situation, when my troubles began from using cannabis. As I have stated before, it hinders the aura, so that what is essentially an organ for downscaling the cosmic Light that allows the Light to bless and give to us, is disabled in its secondary function, its naturally ability to keep 'darkness' ('dark' intent, malice, ill will, psychic hostility)at bay. In my situation I was troubled by disturbance at the thought level by spirits of lower realms. [Take note of the page linked above, in the section "Negativity Must Be Removed To Enter Heaven", where Arthur Yensen writes, "After death, if a soul has been too bad, they go to a realm of lower vibrations where their kind of thoughts can live. If they entered heaven, they would be annihilated by the Master-Vibration of God."]
Also, I just read something on the same page (a page I have read and been back to a few times), that helps explain the psychology of the souls that do evil. Mellen-Thomas Benedict reports a revelation from God, that "What all people seek, what sustains them, is love...What distorts people is a lack of love." What distorts people is a lack of love. What takes a person directly to God after death is a strong awareness of love within them; what keeps them away from God after death is the antithesis of love, - whether fear and a weak awareness of love, or the fear and hostility that arise from having been distorted by a lack of love.
'Awareness of love' means how much you love and feel loved - many 'New Age' sources, as well as ND experiencers, say that love is actually the centre of Life, and the gains we make in Life are in the moments when we are loving. It figures that one's awareness of love is key for a successful transition after the moment of physical expiration.
So that's all, just wished to recommend a site, and make a note of the personal point about drugs affecting the aura and making me/anyone susceptible to telepathic disturbance by spirit-people who have a lesser awareness of love than those in Heaven; and the solution that the ND experiencers keep coming back to, is to hold an awareness of love to be safe from hostile spirit-people.
Reading this website I gained great comfort in my thinking about God and the afterlife and how God feels towards every one of us. People tend to come back with a message of comfort and love and joy.
PS Reading through the section "How To Escape From The Earthbound Realm", in the interest of helping earthbound spirits, on the webpage entitled "The NDE and Hell" (found here), I came across this statement by Near Death experiencer Dr George Ritchie:
"The living have auras of light surrounding their bodies. If the aura becomes distorted through alcohol or drugs, an earthbound soul can temporarily possess the body."
- This reminded me of my own situation, when my troubles began from using cannabis. As I have stated before, it hinders the aura, so that what is essentially an organ for downscaling the cosmic Light that allows the Light to bless and give to us, is disabled in its secondary function, its naturally ability to keep 'darkness' ('dark' intent, malice, ill will, psychic hostility)at bay. In my situation I was troubled by disturbance at the thought level by spirits of lower realms. [Take note of the page linked above, in the section "Negativity Must Be Removed To Enter Heaven", where Arthur Yensen writes, "After death, if a soul has been too bad, they go to a realm of lower vibrations where their kind of thoughts can live. If they entered heaven, they would be annihilated by the Master-Vibration of God."]
Also, I just read something on the same page (a page I have read and been back to a few times), that helps explain the psychology of the souls that do evil. Mellen-Thomas Benedict reports a revelation from God, that "What all people seek, what sustains them, is love...What distorts people is a lack of love." What distorts people is a lack of love. What takes a person directly to God after death is a strong awareness of love within them; what keeps them away from God after death is the antithesis of love, - whether fear and a weak awareness of love, or the fear and hostility that arise from having been distorted by a lack of love.
'Awareness of love' means how much you love and feel loved - many 'New Age' sources, as well as ND experiencers, say that love is actually the centre of Life, and the gains we make in Life are in the moments when we are loving. It figures that one's awareness of love is key for a successful transition after the moment of physical expiration.
So that's all, just wished to recommend a site, and make a note of the personal point about drugs affecting the aura and making me/anyone susceptible to telepathic disturbance by spirit-people who have a lesser awareness of love than those in Heaven; and the solution that the ND experiencers keep coming back to, is to hold an awareness of love to be safe from hostile spirit-people.
Spirit Attachment And Spirit Release: What Can Be Done?
I read about earthbound spirits on a website, where it was saying you don't necessarily need to go to someone to help you with the attachment. The article (read it here, and scroll down to the section entitled "Earthbound Spirits") seems to suggest that the spirits can be talked to and encouraged to cross over by you yourself, you don't need to go to a medium to do the same thing for you, usually - unless the spirits are unusually disturbed. The author uses the words 'unstable' and 'distraught' to describe some spirits who may need a degree of counselling before they move on to the Light. In other words, if, like me, your resident ghosts are reasonable and calm, you can try encouraging them verbally (and emotionally) to cross over to the next world. It seems that the principle barrier for earthbound souls between them and their deserved heaven is their emotions - first emotional release, then spirit release. The author says that most people make it over to the world of spirit on their own without a problem.
I spent hours last night looking for information on spirit release. Exactly how is it done?, I was wondering, and what can I do to help these souls, I asked myself impatiently, for want of help from others?
There are books by psychologists on techniques of spirit release involving hypnotherapy, which seem to extend to putting someone in a trance and giving the spirit-person in question the chance to voice their concerns and be counselled, so that they can loosen their attachments to Earth and move on.
There are books by mediums about spirit release, but with little information as to how you or I at home can do it for ourselves, - at least that's what the book reviews by ordinary people seemed to be saying.
I was angry and a little in despair at this.What do you do?
But there is information online, to this effect:
You can see a medium, who works with people in spirit to help the earthbound people in spirit to get Home to where the Light is and where their family and friends are. I read on one site a medium saying you have to do this with a medium, it is not possible alone, but I don't exactly follow this, I prefer what the other person says as discussed above (the author of the article quoted at the top of this post is a professional psychic medium as well), which is that we ordinary people, without easy contact with guides and angels to help us can move the spirits on through our encouragement and forgiveness and love.
Essentially the earthbound spirit, through your help or through the help of a professional,
Don't forget, if you live in the UK (or the US?), you can always go to your local spiritualist church for advice on releasing spirits stuck near you - and that won't cost you any money.
Also, spirit release for some professionals who practice it and write about it, is a solemn process, because of the great importance and meaning of the release. It really is a great good deed, beyond words.
I have just been looking at the Spirit Release Foundation website. They run training for people to become spirit release practitioners (click this link to go to their training information webpage). This is something I feel very interested in, as a good thing to be done for the world - and probably useful for my own well-being too; however I wouldn't wish to go to a course meeting until I am fully free of 'attachments', since I would have trouble concentrating, and it could be quite embarrassing if someone detects earthbound spirit presence around me!
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Just read through an article on the SRF website (linked here), written from quite a scientific perspective (probably interesting to my scientific readership), called "Spirit Attachment and Human Health", and this article shares information on spirit release techniques (which is ironic, since I've just complained about a lack of specific information on it on the web!) The article reminds me - you can also pray for relatives of the spirits stuck near you, (and their angels and guides) to come from the Light and guide their dear one Home. - I read that elsewhere as a techinique you or I can do.
It has also occurred to me that prayer repeated at certain times every day (or at least with some regular frequency) will be enormously helpful in bringing a solution to become manifested.
I have prayed a few times for the spirit-people remaining near me, as follows:
I spent hours last night looking for information on spirit release. Exactly how is it done?, I was wondering, and what can I do to help these souls, I asked myself impatiently, for want of help from others?
There are books by psychologists on techniques of spirit release involving hypnotherapy, which seem to extend to putting someone in a trance and giving the spirit-person in question the chance to voice their concerns and be counselled, so that they can loosen their attachments to Earth and move on.
There are books by mediums about spirit release, but with little information as to how you or I at home can do it for ourselves, - at least that's what the book reviews by ordinary people seemed to be saying.
I was angry and a little in despair at this.What do you do?
But there is information online, to this effect:
- Send them love
- Tell them to go to the light
You can see a medium, who works with people in spirit to help the earthbound people in spirit to get Home to where the Light is and where their family and friends are. I read on one site a medium saying you have to do this with a medium, it is not possible alone, but I don't exactly follow this, I prefer what the other person says as discussed above (the author of the article quoted at the top of this post is a professional psychic medium as well), which is that we ordinary people, without easy contact with guides and angels to help us can move the spirits on through our encouragement and forgiveness and love.
Essentially the earthbound spirit, through your help or through the help of a professional,
- gains the confidence to move on
- changes in what they feel, from a majority of fear-based emotion to a majority of love-based emotion, and peace, they become positive in outlook; it is an opening of the heart that the earthbound spirit-people will undergo
- releases attachment to Earth and its people, things and animals and opportunities for satisfaction, under the assurance that all good is in the Light, and that when they move on and cross over they will be whole and happy and provided for in every way (as if in a more perfect world, Heaven).
Don't forget, if you live in the UK (or the US?), you can always go to your local spiritualist church for advice on releasing spirits stuck near you - and that won't cost you any money.
Also, spirit release for some professionals who practice it and write about it, is a solemn process, because of the great importance and meaning of the release. It really is a great good deed, beyond words.
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I have just been looking at the Spirit Release Foundation website. They run training for people to become spirit release practitioners (click this link to go to their training information webpage). This is something I feel very interested in, as a good thing to be done for the world - and probably useful for my own well-being too; however I wouldn't wish to go to a course meeting until I am fully free of 'attachments', since I would have trouble concentrating, and it could be quite embarrassing if someone detects earthbound spirit presence around me!
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Just read through an article on the SRF website (linked here), written from quite a scientific perspective (probably interesting to my scientific readership), called "Spirit Attachment and Human Health", and this article shares information on spirit release techniques (which is ironic, since I've just complained about a lack of specific information on it on the web!) The article reminds me - you can also pray for relatives of the spirits stuck near you, (and their angels and guides) to come from the Light and guide their dear one Home. - I read that elsewhere as a techinique you or I can do.
It has also occurred to me that prayer repeated at certain times every day (or at least with some regular frequency) will be enormously helpful in bringing a solution to become manifested.
I have prayed a few times for the spirit-people remaining near me, as follows:
God,
Please help these spirits to be Heavenly, so that they may experience Heaven wherever they are, until they are fully reunited with You in awareness.
Thank you, Amen.
The prayer for them to be Heavenly is a reference to their emotions, that they may feel all goodness in order to be near God, wherever they are, and to bring them nearer to God at the same time so they can go Home more easily.
Good luck in your desire to be free and happy.
You can do something about it.
PS During this post, the earthbound spirit-person near me named Mohammad has been praising me ( - "Well done," he said, on two occasions, as I researched spirit release).
Saturday, 27 November 2010
Healer Trip
Am having a crisis of confidence in the healer I have chosen to help me, (there will be a session next week).
Yes she is named as a top healer by a piece of publicity.
Yes she has trained in the shamanic tradition.
But is she a true shaman?
I had been looking at a list of shamanic practitioners in the UK, and it made me compare her with them, to the effect that she seemed professionally weaker.
She is accredited by testimonials, she seems knowing and sincere, but I'm not sure I trust her methods, from what I read in an account of a session she did. We'll see.
I don't know, maybe she will turn out to be an extremely powerful personality, who can give me healing effects and not just a (quite expensive) healing routine. Trip all booked and paid for...
Yes she is named as a top healer by a piece of publicity.
Yes she has trained in the shamanic tradition.
But is she a true shaman?
- Does she work with good spirit-people who can help heal my energy?
- Will she be powerful and effective enough to cause many positive changes for me?
I had been looking at a list of shamanic practitioners in the UK, and it made me compare her with them, to the effect that she seemed professionally weaker.
She is accredited by testimonials, she seems knowing and sincere, but I'm not sure I trust her methods, from what I read in an account of a session she did. We'll see.
I don't know, maybe she will turn out to be an extremely powerful personality, who can give me healing effects and not just a (quite expensive) healing routine. Trip all booked and paid for...
Friday, 26 November 2010
Spirit Attachment
So, I must have spirit attachments. that's what it means when you have earthbound spirits with you who go with you wherever you go and who 'live' (/squat) in your home with you.
We have:
- Imagination? Or a spirit reality?
It's been two years like this. For some reason my awareness of them clarified at some stage. and I began to realise I had spirits ('ghosts') around me.
I don't know their stories, they don't tell me. I know Mohammad does not wish to be here 'forever'. He often used to say, emphatically, "We're real", just on it's own like that; maybe he is a siprit hero for raising my awareness.
They are highly conscious, the same as you or I - these are not spirit fragments or energetic imprints in a place.
In their point of view, they may be looking for somewhere energetically 'warm' to be near (ie me, an energetically more active person through being spiritually aware); for my point of view, these are not terribly disturbed souls causing havoc, but they are an intrusion at times... Sometimes we are both unwelcome to each other, by fact - they do not wish to be here (I presume), and I prefer to have privacy, like any one else.
I tell them, I am sensitive, not an exorcist, I don't know how to move them on to the Light. However, I read that as their attachment to the Earth and it's world of things and people fades, then if they turn their attention to God, they will find that the 'Light', the eternal presence of God, grows clearer, brighter, stronger and warmer, leading to their successful transcendence. But I'm not an exorcist, they are still here.
Spirits from the Heavens / angels haven't lead them Home yet, either.
Their attachment can be 'positive', in that they love Earthly things enough not to prefer to move on, or 'negative', in that they are afraid to move on, or it can be just that they don't know how to move on. Surely for someone helping a spirit, the merit must be very high. I mean, it's an extremely good deed.
I have seen one professional exorcist (who may or may not have been the real deal), one crystal healer, and two shamanic healers, all of whom have not been able to detect attached spirits. This is through their own inability, I believe; I think someone more in the spiritualist line of capability may be able to help me, someone clairvoyant and clairaudient enough to detect their presence - of which there are many such people.
I know this does not really stand in my favour as a testimony to the fact of spirit attachment, that they went undetected. the crystal healer for example only saw certain things in trance; one of the shamanic healers only told me in an overarching sort of way that I am strong enough to get my health/normality back.
However, I wouldn't be surprised if the spirits 'hide' from healers, through fear or unreadiness to move on.
I am at fault for not finding more help, but that's life - I mean, I have my own life to contend with, a hundred different things that need attending to, and the dripping tap of ghost presence, surprisingly, amidst serious serious psychic attack, depression, fatigue and daily requirements, gets a bit lost. You keep having to remember and remind yourself of what needs doing. "Terrible, you may think, he's living with ghosts, and not helping them" - well yes, I am, you get used to it, and in the overall scheme, a little more time earthbound doesn't seem to hurt anyone too much within that context, frankly.
I tell them "Very soon", they will be home. Next week I am seeing a healer, who may be able to help. I will keep looking as and when I can find someone and organise it.
I think the best piece of advice to give myself or someone in my position is to find a spiritualist church. I've tried this, so, addendum - find a spiritualist church that will help you. [Again, I had the "you're strong enough to rule your world and send anything away you don't want affecting you" line from the people I saw, when help would have been preferable.]
Three kinds of spiritual awareness, to reiterate:
Apparently with spirit attachment, there's a danger of blending of personalities, so you become like them; there's a danger of addiction, so you/they don't want to let go. I can identify. When all this is over.. I don't know what it will be like to have peace and quiet, and privacy.
I'm getting angry again, writing this post! I have to remember the Light, which is all goodness, that we come from, and remember my mantra of compassion for these souls:
We have:
- Mohammad; aged 37ish? on 'death', of Pakistani origin, I think, since he sounds just like someone I met in psychiatric hospital who was from Pakistan originally -presumably M chose to jump ship and come with me at the time, for his own reasons.
- Marjory; I think her name is Marjory - why not? That is the name I got when I mentally asked for it. She is quite elderly, usually a little stressed.
- [Young man, name unknown]; can be ornery (moody, rude).
- Imagination? Or a spirit reality?
It's been two years like this. For some reason my awareness of them clarified at some stage. and I began to realise I had spirits ('ghosts') around me.
I don't know their stories, they don't tell me. I know Mohammad does not wish to be here 'forever'. He often used to say, emphatically, "We're real", just on it's own like that; maybe he is a siprit hero for raising my awareness.
They are highly conscious, the same as you or I - these are not spirit fragments or energetic imprints in a place.
In their point of view, they may be looking for somewhere energetically 'warm' to be near (ie me, an energetically more active person through being spiritually aware); for my point of view, these are not terribly disturbed souls causing havoc, but they are an intrusion at times... Sometimes we are both unwelcome to each other, by fact - they do not wish to be here (I presume), and I prefer to have privacy, like any one else.
I tell them, I am sensitive, not an exorcist, I don't know how to move them on to the Light. However, I read that as their attachment to the Earth and it's world of things and people fades, then if they turn their attention to God, they will find that the 'Light', the eternal presence of God, grows clearer, brighter, stronger and warmer, leading to their successful transcendence. But I'm not an exorcist, they are still here.
Spirits from the Heavens / angels haven't lead them Home yet, either.
Their attachment can be 'positive', in that they love Earthly things enough not to prefer to move on, or 'negative', in that they are afraid to move on, or it can be just that they don't know how to move on. Surely for someone helping a spirit, the merit must be very high. I mean, it's an extremely good deed.
I have seen one professional exorcist (who may or may not have been the real deal), one crystal healer, and two shamanic healers, all of whom have not been able to detect attached spirits. This is through their own inability, I believe; I think someone more in the spiritualist line of capability may be able to help me, someone clairvoyant and clairaudient enough to detect their presence - of which there are many such people.
I know this does not really stand in my favour as a testimony to the fact of spirit attachment, that they went undetected. the crystal healer for example only saw certain things in trance; one of the shamanic healers only told me in an overarching sort of way that I am strong enough to get my health/normality back.
However, I wouldn't be surprised if the spirits 'hide' from healers, through fear or unreadiness to move on.
I am at fault for not finding more help, but that's life - I mean, I have my own life to contend with, a hundred different things that need attending to, and the dripping tap of ghost presence, surprisingly, amidst serious serious psychic attack, depression, fatigue and daily requirements, gets a bit lost. You keep having to remember and remind yourself of what needs doing. "Terrible, you may think, he's living with ghosts, and not helping them" - well yes, I am, you get used to it, and in the overall scheme, a little more time earthbound doesn't seem to hurt anyone too much within that context, frankly.
I tell them "Very soon", they will be home. Next week I am seeing a healer, who may be able to help. I will keep looking as and when I can find someone and organise it.
I think the best piece of advice to give myself or someone in my position is to find a spiritualist church. I've tried this, so, addendum - find a spiritualist church that will help you. [Again, I had the "you're strong enough to rule your world and send anything away you don't want affecting you" line from the people I saw, when help would have been preferable.]
Three kinds of spiritual awareness, to reiterate:
- Earthbound spirits around me 24/7 who I hear circumstantially and communicate with
- Visiting friendly spirits from Heaven (Eg family), coming frequently every day, who I hear and communicate with
- Sensing of spirits partially visiting, 'from above' causing mental disturbance (painful thought interference).
Apparently with spirit attachment, there's a danger of blending of personalities, so you become like them; there's a danger of addiction, so you/they don't want to let go. I can identify. When all this is over.. I don't know what it will be like to have peace and quiet, and privacy.
I'm getting angry again, writing this post! I have to remember the Light, which is all goodness, that we come from, and remember my mantra of compassion for these souls:
All souls go Home.
- I believe all souls find their way back to the Light, whether as a place, or as a condition of the heart (of the emotions, of morality). Hope.
Who To Go To For Mental Or Spiritual Problems
If you have mental problems, see a doctor and a psychiatrist.
If you have mental-spiritual problems, see a mental-spiritual health practitioner.
If you have problems with spiritual evil, seek spiritual defense and spiritual warriors.
[You may, like me, become a spiritual warrior yourself, although I am still in need of the helping attentions of someone stronger/healthier than I am]. - Telling point. In the material world, we are defended by the police and the 'armed forces'; when in need to be safe from spiritual evil, who do you go to? A priest? Yes, or someone trained in the shamanic tradition. ['Shaman' is becoming an over-used word on this blog, but 'shaman' is still a very important word here to pay attention to.] The 'shamanic' tradition is an ancient and diverse tradition found individually in societies all over the world, and it includes a tradition of spiritual awareness and mediation with the spirit world; be sure to look into this tradition for more information - as someone spiritual, with one foot in the waters already, it may interest you to study these old ways.
At present, in the UK, in the West, there probably are only very few people who are interested in holistic mental health care, - qualified as both a psychiatrist and spiritual mediator. These are at present incompatible realities, here. I guess the way it is at present is, if you are like me, you suffer until you find someone who can help and until you can find ways of helping yourself.
If you have mental-spiritual problems, see a mental-spiritual health practitioner.
If you have problems with spiritual evil, seek spiritual defense and spiritual warriors.
[You may, like me, become a spiritual warrior yourself, although I am still in need of the helping attentions of someone stronger/healthier than I am]. - Telling point. In the material world, we are defended by the police and the 'armed forces'; when in need to be safe from spiritual evil, who do you go to? A priest? Yes, or someone trained in the shamanic tradition. ['Shaman' is becoming an over-used word on this blog, but 'shaman' is still a very important word here to pay attention to.] The 'shamanic' tradition is an ancient and diverse tradition found individually in societies all over the world, and it includes a tradition of spiritual awareness and mediation with the spirit world; be sure to look into this tradition for more information - as someone spiritual, with one foot in the waters already, it may interest you to study these old ways.
At present, in the UK, in the West, there probably are only very few people who are interested in holistic mental health care, - qualified as both a psychiatrist and spiritual mediator. These are at present incompatible realities, here. I guess the way it is at present is, if you are like me, you suffer until you find someone who can help and until you can find ways of helping yourself.
Terminology And Belief
Where do I begin? How do I describe things?
But how do you go about describing that? Recently I found that there was nothing I could say, beyond the intimation that I had had "an illness". The moment I start trying to put it into words, when I choose to reveal the situation, I enter into into what is essentially an argument about the paranormal - in a world not ready to believe in it.
Of people who are not specialists in spiritual healing, I know of only one person who is willing to give me some credence - one person in the world who 'buys' what I'm trying to 'sell'. "I'm not sure whether there really is something real happening to you," he says, my Community Psychiatric Nurse - how mind-blowing that it would be someone in his position who was willing to believe me. He understands that my sensitivity yields both supportive comforting input (from the celestials), and destructive harmful input (from spirits of lesser light and happiness), and I suppose the fact that it is not all flat-out negative input that helps him believe - he has a 'spiritualist' bone in his (agnostic) body); his sister is an awakened individual in touch with her guides.
Another individual who believes me is the shamanic healer I saw who helped me feel healthy once; he affirmed that I am strong enough to 'reclaim my energetic space', and he didn't really go into lots of discussion about what I said was happening to me, he merely agreed with me.
There is such a weight of belief against credence in the spiritual in the world today, in my part of the world. We have edged it out, disbelieved it and called it 'paranormal' (that is "outside of normal"). Perhaps this state of belief leads to repressed psychicness (that we call 'weirdness', instead of respecting psychicness when it is pronounced in someone); perhaps it also leads to problems with spirits, through our own ignorance, lack of initiation and inability to relate to the spirit world. - Who knows?
Yes it's a problem to deny our psychicness. But we do at least benefit from a lack of superstition, fear of the malus oculus (Latin) fear of the ophthalmos baskanos (Greek) - the "evil eye" - and so on. And we don't walk around daily in fear of witches and their ill-will.
So, thank you for your wisdom on some things, thank you for the medicine, but my part of the human community has large bare patches that could be more fertile (just as other parts of the global culture have wild parts of superstition that could be tamed and cut back); the definition of my condition is made difficult by my particular home area of the world's cultural awareness. There is near-blanket disbelief in Western psychiatry about spirit influence upon the mind, and this must be adversely affecting a lot of people who could otherwise be helped, or helped sooner (sooner than it takes a person to figure out themselves what's happening to them and go and find help independently of the medical system). I guess the state of medicine here makes me angry. The science-related level of spiritual awareness and willingness to believe here makes me angry.I'm a little angry writing this. But things may change, with the science side of things, the psychiatric sensitivity may change. Things do change.
- "Health issues", "mental health issues"
- "A condition"
- "Diagnosed with schizophrenia"
But how do you go about describing that? Recently I found that there was nothing I could say, beyond the intimation that I had had "an illness". The moment I start trying to put it into words, when I choose to reveal the situation, I enter into into what is essentially an argument about the paranormal - in a world not ready to believe in it.
- 'condition' not disorder
- psychic attack, spirit attack
Of people who are not specialists in spiritual healing, I know of only one person who is willing to give me some credence - one person in the world who 'buys' what I'm trying to 'sell'. "I'm not sure whether there really is something real happening to you," he says, my Community Psychiatric Nurse - how mind-blowing that it would be someone in his position who was willing to believe me. He understands that my sensitivity yields both supportive comforting input (from the celestials), and destructive harmful input (from spirits of lesser light and happiness), and I suppose the fact that it is not all flat-out negative input that helps him believe - he has a 'spiritualist' bone in his (agnostic) body); his sister is an awakened individual in touch with her guides.
Another individual who believes me is the shamanic healer I saw who helped me feel healthy once; he affirmed that I am strong enough to 'reclaim my energetic space', and he didn't really go into lots of discussion about what I said was happening to me, he merely agreed with me.
There is such a weight of belief against credence in the spiritual in the world today, in my part of the world. We have edged it out, disbelieved it and called it 'paranormal' (that is "outside of normal"). Perhaps this state of belief leads to repressed psychicness (that we call 'weirdness', instead of respecting psychicness when it is pronounced in someone); perhaps it also leads to problems with spirits, through our own ignorance, lack of initiation and inability to relate to the spirit world. - Who knows?
Yes it's a problem to deny our psychicness. But we do at least benefit from a lack of superstition, fear of the malus oculus (Latin) fear of the ophthalmos baskanos (Greek) - the "evil eye" - and so on. And we don't walk around daily in fear of witches and their ill-will.
So, thank you for your wisdom on some things, thank you for the medicine, but my part of the human community has large bare patches that could be more fertile (just as other parts of the global culture have wild parts of superstition that could be tamed and cut back); the definition of my condition is made difficult by my particular home area of the world's cultural awareness. There is near-blanket disbelief in Western psychiatry about spirit influence upon the mind, and this must be adversely affecting a lot of people who could otherwise be helped, or helped sooner (sooner than it takes a person to figure out themselves what's happening to them and go and find help independently of the medical system). I guess the state of medicine here makes me angry. The science-related level of spiritual awareness and willingness to believe here makes me angry.I'm a little angry writing this. But things may change, with the science side of things, the psychiatric sensitivity may change. Things do change.
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